Happy Anniversary to me!!! superwife: So today's the day. 8 years ago, we got married, 1 yr ago, he dropped the bomb. Yes, on the same day. Isn't he sweet???
So for the last week, I've been borderline psychotic/depressed. Hormones did play a part. So did school, and work, and money. A little bit of everything, I suppose. It was all catching up with me. But I think it was the upcoming 'day' that was weighing heavily on me. I thought a year ago that I'd be okay by now. I mean, I am okay, but I'm not (I'm sure you all know what I mean). It's been the craziest year of my life. I thought I was doing well for a while. Heck, I hadn't needed to come on here to vent/mourn/commiserate. I've been drowning myself in work, school, etc. But it's becoming overwhelming, and no amount of work I do is getting me out of this financial hole.
So fast forward to today. I decided that I was not going to wallow in self pity today. It's just a day. So I started off the day with a bang (my BF slept over, and I woke his a$$ up so he could put me in a good mood :)). I went to work, had the usual issues. I teach nursing students, and have to deal with a lot of stress from the students, and the nurses who work in the hosp (who don't like us or trust us). I just let it all go today. I usually want to run out of there crying, but not today. I wasn't even close to it. Now I'm waiting for the credit union to return my phone call, to discuss my huge outstanding loan balance. I'm not gonna sweat it. What can I do? It's only 2:00, bt I'm not gonna ruin this day, just b/c it's supposed to be a bad day. Maybe it's supposed to be a good day??
Re: Happy Anniversary to me!!! angelina: i know its hard on my frist A i was so upset thining was he thinking of me but the next day i felt better i guess we have to go through this
Re: Happy Anniversary to me!!! EssieDotCom: my wedding anniversary was march 7th, and this yr was the first we during which we had been "Seperated" for it. He was out on the ship and i thought with one little grain of hope in my heart and mind that he would have at least emailed me and said "hello, i'm thinking of you" or somethiing like that. Well i should have guessed he wouldnt have. but I was hurt just the same. ((((HUGS)))) scream into a pillow!
Re: Happy Anniversary to me!!! superwife: Well, for me, it came and went. My daughter was with him that day, she called me that night. If he has something to say to me, she'll tell me to hold on b/c daddy wants to talk to you. She didn't, so I guess he had nothing to say to me. I was actually waiting for him to pick a battle, but nothing. If he would have picked one, I was planning to to end it with a Happy Anniversary. But nothing. Probably better this way.
Re: Happy Anniversary to me!!! EssieDotCom: (((HUGS)))
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