It Doesn't Seem To Be Getting Better Mazzalee: Well, today started as a bad depressed day, then I turned into a totally different person. I was happy and looking at the positives and feeling really good. Went to lunch with a co-worker and had fun. THEN IT HAPPENED!!!!! I got back to the office and my phone rang. I picked it up, and there he was on the other end. My heart dropped to the floor and just said "What". He seemed shocked thats what I said but he was asking questions about whether he needed to be back int he state for the divorce or not and also wanted to say he was sorry for everything. Of course, this made me vulnerable to talk to him. I know I shouldn't have continued the conversation, but I can't help but still love him for some stupid reason. He said he couldn't believe what happened and that how its over. I told him he could have fought for what he believed in and loved instead of fighting against it. He could have fought for us and offered to get some help for his anger. He say's that his famiyl put up alot of money for him to drive back home and stuff so he can't just turn around and come back, we've done this too many times before. We both agreed that we love eachother dearly but at the same time we seem to hate eachother. He said he knows that he needs help. But he is getting a job there and moving in with his brother so theres no turning back. He wanted to push the issue of how much he loves me and didn't want to live without me. But I told him he never proved his love for me. He just assumed /I would know from all the anger and spitful things he did I suppose. I need to get through this. I need to see the positive in all this, but it isn't working. Just knowing he is so far away and knowing how much he supposidly loves me, just hurts so much. I need to move on and look to the better future and finding someone who will appreciate and love me the same in return, but man right now it just feels like it will never happen for me. My son is what keeps me going. I am dreading this weekend coming up because he is going to his fathers for the weekend so I am left alone. I may just stay at my parents for the weekend, because I can't stay at the house alone.
I just want to feel good. I just don't know what that is like anymore.
- Mazzalee
Re: It Doesn't Seem To Be Getting Better Hopeless: What state are you in?
The weather is supposed to be nice this weekend......
Re: It Doesn't Seem To Be Getting Better Mazzalee: I am in CT..............
Re: It Doesn't Seem To Be Getting Better sosad05: This is so sad. It makes me want to cry. It makes me sad that you clearly still love each other, have a child, but cant make it work.
Ofcourse I dont know all the details.
[quote"> He say's that his famiyl put up alot of money for him to drive back home and stuff so he can't just turn around and come back,[/quote">
This seems petty. What about his family with you and your child?? You seem to be in a sad/tough spot.
<<<HUGS>>>
Re: It Doesn't Seem To Be Getting Better diplomat: I feel for you! my ex is the same way she calls out of the blue or im's me late at night telling me to save her from her self and that she loves me and has no idea why she cheats?? but i go back and it good for about a day and then she is back to her old selfish ways. I also have kids and want the best for them and i would go back just for them to have a good head start in life, but she only wants whats good for her self! I to have good hours in my day but they always get sad as it gets late!! just let it burn.. something good will happen for u. i want it for myself... nothing seems to come easy in the life were in right now but it will.
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