Re: It Doesn't Seem To Be Getting Better AMG: Mazz,
I am learning a very tough lesson. The images we build of people in our head are not always the way they are. We build them up in our heads until they are almost god like, we choose to ignore or make excuses when they dont measure up to our expectations. It is a very tough situation to be in, very confusing! Our heads (sometimes) can think rationally, but when the heart is so deeply involved our vision can become so distorted.
If you can...take some time for yourself. Do some serious soul searching. Try to focus on you and what makes you happy. Often in situations like this we tend to lose touch with our own selves. Someone posted to put all that love into yourself. Very good advice. Not to mention your son.
It is scary to feel so alone. But, if you learn to love and take care of yourself, somehow things just seem to work out. People can see that in you and will be drawn to you.
Trust me, I know how hard life is for you right now. Also, I dont know your whole situation but maybe a little no contact for some time will help you, or at least set up some boundaries and tell him you dont want to hear how much he loves you etc. Keep your conversations simple. Hang in there!
Re: It Doesn't Seem To Be Getting Better sheeps: I think his call was more about him wanting you to make him feel better about his choices than it was about anything else. I think you did well at that.
You need hold him accountable; all the time. If he "Dearly Loved" you, he'd be there even if his parent's mortgaged their home to get him back so he could move in with his brother.
Love=Sacrifice....remember that.
-R
