Im starting a daily journal vanwri0206: [color=purple"> [/color"> Well...not every day but Im starting an entry maybe every few days on how my progress is. If you want to know my story check it out in the "Tell your Story" area ...subject "8 years of straight hell"
4/21 - its been 4 days. Ive been doing really well... I havent cried in 2 days and havent had a sad feeling in 24 hrs. That could be due to the fact that Im juggling two jobs so I worked from 730 am to 11pm yesterday. The people I work with are so supportive so it helps. My aunt (who is more like a sister) came to visit from Vegas because she feels I need some family in my life right now and tonight we are going out for some drinks and just an over all good time. I miss my ex still, and the thought that he is with someone else right now does hurt, but only at times. Since this is not the first time he's left me for someone else Im used to feeling this way but this time my recovery is MUCH better because for the first time ever, I feel its REALLY REALLY over. I told him I would see him this Sunday to "talk" because he still was unsure about us .... but I dont plan on calling or picking up his call...in fact, I already have plans to hang out with a friend that day because in my mind, Ive ended it. Before I would think, well Maybe we can talk sunday and I can convince him to be with me...NOT now!!! Im done, Ive been off and on for 8 years and for the first time, my soul, mind, and body are at their breaking point with him. I cant stand the sight of him, the thought of him and below are a list of his nasty qualities. This is my way of venting!!!
1. He has NASTY/HORRIBLE athletes foot that stinks up a room
2. gross teeth, they are dying.
3. pot heat
4. drinks alone all the time
5. 27 yrs old, restaurant server
6. no high school diploma
7. his older brother handles his bills
8. no bank account because he let it go overdrawn
9. had to give his whole tax return to his brother becaues he owed him so much money
10. lives in a garage at his friends house
11. lets his finger nails grow and get dirty
12. thinks he can own a dojo one day hes 5'10 weighs 130 lbs and wants to be a fighter--haha
13. smokes cigarettes
14. owes all his friends money
15. lies all the time (little white lies just to get himself out of a bank situaiton)
16. is never happy
17. always made me pay for EVERYTHING
18. his bedroom, excuse me, garage smells like nasty feet
19. wears dirty clothes
20. has like a million empty beer cans in his room
21. eats like crap, will get a clogged artery soon
all i can think of right now.... more to flw. [/font"> [/font">
Re: Im starting a daily journal superwife: After that list, there's no way in hell you should be crying. (Joking...I know it still hurts...but seriously, look what you're not missing...sometimes I need to make that mental list, and laugh. It puts things in perspective)
