rage broken_saint: i never thought that i would see the day that you would litterally get up and abandon me the way you did. i just want you to know that what you purposely put me through was so unbelievably horrible... it was completely selfish and cruel. and after all this time, i ended up with the most cruelest person in the world. you .
you never gave things a chance. a fighting chance. i really don't know where you lost sight of the portrait of our future we both painted, but it really bothers me that you never informed me of what was going on with you. i knew you were unhappy at times, i didn't know it was directed at us, but i would ask you and you'd simply either say "it's nothing" or you'd pretty much shrug it off while making me think that it had nothing to do with me or that it wasnt important enough. so do you blame me for not listening at times? i wouldn't. one thing is for sure cristina, i loved you for you and i was happy with you and who you were and how both of us were to each other. it wasn't about being "comfortable" it was about getting to my goal. i wanted to marry you ...you had to have known that after we discussed the situation with my mom. i wanted to have children with you.... i wanted to give you all the things that a man does for his WIFE including handing you whatever was left of my soul to you whichever way you desired. i didn't need you for the things you did, i needed my fiance to take the steps with me. we have come so far cristina. but yet i don't even know you anymore. i am now worth an IM instead of a mature heart to heart talk. i am so destroyed by what you have done to me. i don't know what i've done to you but what you did was the most horrible things that's ever happened to me and i will never forget it. NEVER. i never thought you would ever hurt me so badly. badly enough that it nearly killed me. seriously, if it wasn't for c***** saving my fucking life, i would NOT be here today. and guess what now? i have to see doctors now. take fucking pills that i never thought i would ever take. have sessions about how this and how that and what improvements i should make for me and everyone and blah blah blah fucking blah. while you have it so fucking easy... out with your new life, new man, the easy way out works huh? i promise you ... you will feel what i'm feeling one day .. i only hope that it's much worse for you than it was for me.
you have no idea what you've done to me. and what hurts most is that you just do not care and very it's obvious now that you never had.
Re: rage Wreck: Ya i would like to say that to her! :-X
