Something irritating just happened... MikeB: ...while I was in the cellar searching for something, I stubled across one of these huge DIN A 1 pages some people (including me) have on their desks to make notes... it's (the) one that was on her desk... there are notes on it that are so immensly memory-laden that I nearly choked...
-The phone-number of the hospital (and room) where her father was after his stroke ... I used to hold her and comfort her when she got the news... she was so scared she cried and afterwards she said she was so glad that I was there for her...
-A cute little comic she drew under another note while she was on the phone...
-Details for our holiday-trip to Amsterdam...
... I nearly choked. All this quality time we spent together...I felt a little angry and very much disappointed in her that all this doesn't seem to mean anything to her anymore...
And even for three months after the breakup she said that it was so good that when we both will have sorted out our problems we'll give it another chance... (you know the story)
However, this is not what this thread is about...
what really suprised and irritated me was that -while I still know that I love her, that I find her behaviour disappointing and that I hope for another chance someday(again, this is not the topic of this thread)- after only two minutes... it stopped affecting me!?!? :o
This has never happened before. Some part of me thinks it's a good sign, another part of me worries that these good times we've had don't mean that much to me anymore... but then I know that they do (see above)... I am puzzled.
This may be not big enough an issue to start a thread, but I feel quite irritated and puzzled and wanted to ask what you make of this development...
-Mike
Re: Something irritating just happened... Older Guy: Don't try force feelings if they are not there. If the bad feeling went away after a few minutes why would you question that ? It's part of starting to feel better. If you feel it then it must be a "real" feeling rather than what you think you want to feel. Just enjoy it.
Re: Something irritating just happened... audi_driver: Mike,
You know what man...........I'm a little bit of an odd ball......I still have our wedding pictures up, pictures of her and our daughter in frames around my place, my computer's desktop is a picture of us and I watch our wedding video.
For me, it's all healthy. It doesn't effect me the way it used to......I look at it this way.......All the the pictures and memories were THE BEST TIMES in my life. I now look at them, think of that day we took the photo, smile and move on......
It's natural for people to want to feel depressed or even not feel anything at all......Just remember to try to think of the good things and SMILE!
Re: Something irritating just happened... MikeB: Well, now that I refelect on it I feel positively surprised... The thing I have waited for has started to happen... which I wasn't sure it would ever do...
I still have all the love (and hope), but finally, for the first time, there's a little less pain.
Re: Something irritating just happened... toofreshtothinkright: I'm glad for you Mike....I really am - sounds like the progress is being made.
I jsut got to find your footprints and follow them somehow.
I ran into Sarah's friend today...couldn't avoid her...she just again supports the fact that she is soooooooooo happy now.:(
Good for you Mike....Keep it up....
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