Re: Something irritating just happened... MikeB: Thanks Dave.
But I do hope you're gonna do better than me... took me more than 8 months to get to this point. And it's just a tiny tiny little step...
...And it doesn't mean I won't be utterly depressed anymore... As my starting post in this thread implies... this all still gives me a lot of pain... but I do hope it'll improve in this direction.
Hearing that the one you love and lost is completely happy without you... it's weird. As much as you wish them well and wish that they are happy, it hurts. It hurts to think that the person for whom you once were the source of joy and happiness can just walk away from that and be just as happy.
I for my part don't understand it because she used to be so utterly happy with me... and I am somewhat ashamed to find myself thinkin that it's somehow not right that she doesn't suffer from the loss of all this, after all she said I was to her...
Well, you know I'm dedicated...I'll redeem myself someday...
I guess some part of that bad feeling we get when we hear that they are sooooo happy is because we are ashamed that we feel bad when we hear this.
The human mind is a weird thing indeed...
Re: Something irritating just happened... alonewith2: I can understand how hearing them being so happy now would make us feel bad. I really do want my stbx to find happiness, but at the same time, I know it'll make me feel bad because it'll be a reminder that "I" didn't make him happy. However, I do know that I made him happy once. Even if for a brief amount of time, I know that he was happy with me once. He may not admit it (just as your ex doesn't admit that this effects her), I still know that it does.
Just because she acts like it doesn't, MikeB, doesn't mean that it's true. ;)
