T Minus 15 hours Mist: 5 pm PST is when I have to sit down with the man that I so desperately love and fill out papers saying that we no longer want to be married.
Today was a relatively good day but as the wee hours of the morning creep by and I can't sleep my chest is tight, my stomach is nauseous and my heart aches.
How am I going to get through this?
With everything that I am I want to fight this. Scream No. Wake up and it all be a bad dream.
I am having a very weak moment.
Re: T Minus 15 hours love4dar8rz: Hang in there Mist,. What has helped me is thinking about my kids and being strong for them. It will get easier as everybody on this board says...just take it one day at a time.
Re: T Minus 15 hours tina: Hi Mist,
I thought I'd say something to make you feel better but I feel my eyes are filling up with tears and there is a lump in my throat. The reason is very simple, I feel the same (so you're not the only one awake at 5am). I keep telling myself I will be OK but deep down the whole world has collapsed on the top of my head and it has only just started 4 days ago, and I can't see the release from pain in years to come. I guess people get through worse things than break-up and there is always someone worse off than you...so I shouldn't feel sorry for myself. I have lots of friends but I feel so alone. I just split up with my boyfriend after 9 years (he felt he did not feel the same about me any more and that we have reached the end of the road, while I am still madly in love with him like the 1st day), and he found another girlfriend in a week, I feel sick in my stomach at the thought of them together....I wish someone could help me, I feel physicall pain... I am trying to keep it together at work, but I am really struggling....
I would like to give you my support, I think we all need each other and if it can ease the pain for even a fraction it helps...
Love T x
Re: T Minus 15 hours Mist: Well the papers are filled out.
We aren't filing them till June (due to finances). I threw out the option of trying counseling between now and then and he shot it down.
So I came to the realization that if he doesn't want to work on it then he doesn't deserve to have me.
I can't continue to beat myself up. I was/am willing to work on it and he isn't so its not my fault anymore.
Re: T Minus 15 hours Kitty: Amen! He doesn't deserve you.. stay strong hun (((((BIG HUG)))))
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