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My ex............. Cherry: Super dad just called.  Let me ask you guys.  If you had no idea when or if you were ever going to see your kids again, would you call once a week for 10 minutes??

He thinks he is fulfilling his fatherly duty by calling once a week on Sunday mornings at 10 here.  Course he only speaks to them for about 5 mins each, if they are lucky.

He was even half an hour late last week and said he was busy watching a movie and almost totally forgot.......haw haw haw. 

I really wish he would just fucking give up and leave us the hell alone.  He HAD to tell my son that his cousin was outside playing at his house.  Course Ean started crying and wanted to "go live with his dad" or go back to Kansas.

*SIGH* 

I posted this part up top...................but the rest of my thoughts are more private.

I feel like he is trying to manipulate the kids just enough that the dont forget about him, that the keep giving me a hard time, that they hate it here and want to move back.  Just enought to keep them off balance.  I wish he would not call at all.  I wish that we could make a clean break of things. 

Im not sure about my new relationship, there will always be doubts with a new one.  But for goodness sake, we moved in together.  Is that the wrong choice for me and the kids.  Am I jumping too fast??  I dont know.  Will I be the same place I was before meeting D in a few years?? 

Im scared to death.  There are moments all feels right and I think this is a forever thing, and there are moments when I know this "wont work".  Is this normal or am I screwed in the head??

I want to duck and run and know that is a cowardly way to live life, Please help me guys.............
Re: My ex............. brokenbaby: Cherry, I think your ex is an ass plain and simple.

As for your fears, they are so normal sweetie, because we never know and we cannot know what we face in the future.  Do what feels good to you now and take care of yourself and the kids.  If you worry too much now about the end, it will bring the end sooner than necessary.

Just my 2 cents....(hugs)


Re: My ex............. yella: Cherry,

It's normal to feel scared in a serious relationship, especially if it moves as fast as yours did, but it all matters what's happening in your heart.

Every relationship has it's ups and downs, but if you have a fight with him, and your gut says, "Get the hell out!", then worry, if not, just go with what you can and keep steppin'.

Like BB said, take care of your kids and yourself, and the rest will fall into place.

-Me
Re: My ex............. Cherry: Thanks guys, I really appreciate it.  Everthing is in uproar right now so it all seems so overwhelming.  I am trying to take this all one day at a time and not judge the present on the past, but how do you NOT do that??  This is hard.  :-\
Re: My ex............. yella: Is he doing something that someone else did? Are you fighting a lot, or just adjusting?

I can see how moving from one place (especially a state) to another for someone can be huge, and something in all reality I don't think I could do.

Maybe it's homesickness?

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