In Love with friend of 18 yrs...Should I ask him to set me up on a blind date? Macaw_Lover: Ok so those of you who have read my posts on me sleeping with my very very good friend of 18 yrs last summer don't need me to repeat any of this.
We talk periodically, but seldom is the key word.....every so often I think about how our one single moment of being intimate with one another could have single handedly destroyed our friendship. I still do have hope that one day that can be restored and if enough time passes it will be as it was. I have to believe we have a strong enough friendship. A big part of me still feels that he still has feelings for me, but isn't willing to pursue them. Who knows, I could be wrong I know.
Anyways, I wouldn't say I have been waiting around for him. But I was thinking about well I know he knows guys that I do not know, so maybe he knows one that might be good for me? I mean after all he knows me better than most. So maybe he could set me up on a blind date? I certainly do not want to ask for him to be jealous, but a part of me would be lying if I didn't say I hoped that it might spark that interest of that he might want to be with me. Silly I know, it's late and I'm probably talking crazy. I am not one who believes jealousy brings people together. But I figure why not, maybe he really DOES know someone that would be good for me and well I certainly am not dating anyone right now.
To be honest part of me always thought we were perfect for one another. But as the current situation holds, I must be wrong on that. We slept together only 3 months after his 4 yr relationship ended, so either he was on the rebound OR he just realized that he didn't want me as much as he had seemed to feel for so many years....
Just because of my strong feelings for him, doesn't mean I think I should wait around forever. Maybe it's time I just moved on from what may have always just been a fantasy in my head. Any thoughts on this, it's stupid probably huh asking him to set me up. I just keep thinking he is really the only one I know that might know of a guy that I have well haven't already met. Suggestions on this would be much welcomed......thank you!
