Major setback Lance: So my stbx and I had no contact with each other for over 2 full weeks. It's been 4 months since we seperated now, and the last two weeks I consciously worked myself out of this funk. I just kept coming up with things to do, telling my self that I was going to be alright when the lonely feelings would creep in my head, working on getting my sense of humor back on active status. Went camping/fishing with a couple of buds and actually had a GOOD TIME.
Well, Saturday night came around and here I was sitting around in front of the computer after working in the yard all day. I put a bottle of wine down in a little under an hour. Suddenly I just had the urge to GET OUT of the house, go have a beer at the bar down the road. Nothing else to do in this small town, so what the hell.
BIG MISTAKE.
Oh, it was okay at first. Met up with a former coworker I'd been friends with, and we started doing shots together. All of a sudden, the moment I knew I'd have to face came crashing through my tequila drunk: My stbx and her boyfriend (the asshole she left me for) had entered the bar and were no less than 5 feet from me.
They left about 2 minutes after they got there, it must've been the look on my face she noticed. The look she said always intimidated her, even if I was giving it to someone else at the time. You know, THAT look. So like an idiot I followed them out. They were walking away and I yelled at him. I told him it was time to face me. He said fine, let's walk to the back of the parking lot. I followed him with my rage boiling over. This was my chance to make him look on the outside how I felt on the inside. Problem was when he turned to face me he was pulling out a knife. I don't know why but I got in his face and told him to drop the knife and face me like a man. He wouldn't do it, he was too afraid of me. His 'friends' had told me that before. I never touched him anywhere but nose to nose unleashing my hatred on him. Then she steps in and starts pushing me. It was a side of her I'd never seen. She was calling me every name in the book telling me to get lost. By then other people from in the bar made it outside and split us up. I called my stbx a whore and flung rocks everywhere as I tore out of the parking lot.
Amazingly I made it home, and the first thing I did was take every last thing of hers that was left in this house and started flinging it out the front door. The neighbors were out on their porch watching me chuck antique Christmas ornaments all over the sidewalk. I told them this was what happens when a woman treats her vows like shit. Then I went upstairs and crashed.
When I woke up I called her contact number and told them to tell her to come get her crap out of my front yard. Of course she shows up with a cop, and then presses charges of property damage on me. I don't care. It felt so good to destroy her things, and to see her come crawling back in shame, in broad daylight, in full view of the neighbors, picking up the last few pieces of our destroyed marriage. This was 4 months of hell boiled over. The sweet joy that we shared for the first 3 years, the love I had felt for noone else before her is now gone for good, out of my soul, and replaced with hatred. I know this is not healthy. But at least I can try and rebuild again with her completely out of my home. And if my lawyer is as good as everyone says he is, she will be a memory on paper soon as well. The day I sign the papers I am burning our marriage certificate. I can't wait. I know there will never be another her, and now I am fine with it.
Re: Major setback vanwri0206: wow ... you unleashed the anger. I hope you feel better. Its good to get it all out sometimes.
Re: Major setback mikeymcadam: Dude i wish i could have beat the crap out of the guy who cheated with my wife or at least got in his face a little bit. i did have sex with his wife after the fact though.
Re: Major setback mikeymcadam: thank you!
Re: Major setback Lance: That would be sweet revenge, to sleep with HIS wife, except he HAS no wife, no life at all, that's why he got involved in mine. Funny thing, my friends have said (like Devil's Advocates) "If not him, then someone else." So what. It was him, and that's enough. One friend says "It's just another dick." I say every dick has a face, and whether he or she initiated it, the fact remains that they have both wronged me, and both of them are going to regret it eventually. It's a matter of time. It sucks to have bad blood in a town I just moved to, but at least I know where I stand with that person, bad or good. Before, when I met him with just suspicions in my head, I thought he was a loser even then. Funny how a woman will drop out of a marriage going though rough times, but one where she could want for nothing, and run to someone who has nothing to show for his character, and does drugs all day. Initially she asked for the car, a nice one at that, and now she has called saying she doesn't want the car. It's because she's taking on his lifestyle altogether.... carefree, responsibility-free, big ol fairy tale party land. A soon to be 40 year old single divorcee who is sitting at the bottom of the barrel, that is her life story and I can't finish this chapter soon enough.
