the divortex.... trapped: When ex and I first divorced I lost many things....him foremost, many friends, his family, belongings, pets, sleep, my sanity. I referred to it at the time as 'the divortex'....that place where things and people went & were swept away because of the divorce.
Although we arent divorcing again (never did make it as far as getting remarried, although that was the plan) I find myself facing yet another divortex.
You would think that just losing your lover, your mate and best friend was enough, without having to lose everything else as well. When does it ever stop? I dont know if I have the werewithall this time around. Im older and not as strong. I know I cant have it all, that would mean still being with the man that I adore who has decided he doesnt want the same. Ive accepted that in these past couple months. But still, the price to pay just seems so unreasonably high. You lose your life as you know it and love it, and more.
Just a little break somewhere would be nice. Just a little something worth the struggle would be nice. This is just a girl alone with her thoughts late on a friday night. Remembering what was, what it is, and what I had hoped it could have been.
*Sssiiiiggghhhh*
Re: the divortex.... Fork: [quote author=trapped link=topic=28515.msg277252#msg277252 date=1146903269"> I'm older and not as strong.[/quote">
Funny, that's how I see it, too. I don't feel like I'm getting better and better as I grow older. I just feel like I'm wearing down. :-\
Re: the divortex.... trapped: Me too Fork, me too. Just whiped out. Tired. Defeated.
