I'm sorry, and I'm trying... yella: I'm sorry that he's still renting space.
I'm sorry that it's taking me so long to let go.
I'm sorry that he can still get into my heart.
I'm sorry that I let it get to me sometimes.
I'm sorry that it's so hard for me to love.
I'm sorry that I allowed it all to ruin me.
I'm sorry that I have regrets.
I'm sorry that I can't take any of it back, or erase any of it. If I could, I would.
I'm sorry that it took me so long to get to you.
I'm sorry that I hurt you when I said I was going back on my birthday.
I'm sorry that I was stupid to trust someone so far away.
But I'm not sorry that it all led me to you.
I'm not sorry that you're here.
I'm not sorry that you held my heart the night that I sobbed.
I'm not sorry that you were the one I leaned on when I needed someone the most.
I'm not sorry that I push so hard for you to take care of yourself.
I'm not sorry for being so protective.
I'm not sorry for running into your arms.
I'm not sorry for the circumstances leading me there.
I'm not sorry for the way you make me laugh.
I'm not sorry for the way I melt into your eyes when you look up at me through the tops of your glasses.
I'm not sorry that my face lights up when I smile, and I'm not sorry that you're the reason it does.
I'm not sorry for letting you into our lives.
I'm not sorry for trusting you.
And I won't be sorry when it's time to love you, because you're worth it.
Re: I'm sorry, and I'm trying... timetobefree: Girlie,
This is really powerful. It gave me chills!
But this line:
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And I won't be sorry when it's time to love you, because you're worth it.
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made my eyes well up! Wow...such a great thought.
Amy
Re: I'm sorry, and I'm trying... yella: Thanks, Amy!
I've been doing a lot of thinking the past few days, and a few things have helped me put my life and heart into perspective. I've realized who's worth my love and who isn't, and he's the one who is.
I knew you could relate. ;)
I really think now that I'm falling for him. The need to be near him is growing, to touch him, to place my head in his chest, and to want him to never let go.
I miss him when he's not with me, and yes, at times it's scares me, but it is what it is, and I'm not going to fight against it as hard as I was before.
