tired of pretending eeyore0512: I'm so tired of being alone. It's been months since I've had any kind of physical human contact (not just sex). I'm tired of coming home and not having a single person to say hello to. (I can't even have pets where I"m living). I'm tired of always being the 3rd wheel when I hang out with friends. I'm tired of not being able to fall asleep knowing there isn't anyone around. I'm tired of having to sleep on the floor because the only bed I have is the one the a**wipe screwed his sl*t on. I"m tired of pretending this still doesn't hurt. I'm tired of pretending that I'm strong and going to be fine. I'm just so tired of feeling that I have nothing to offer...but how could I when he took everything there was to me? I'm tired of thinking about him. I'm just so f**king tired of everything!!!
Re: tired of pretending moksha: I hear you and I feel your pain. I just posted the stupid ex-sex post and I felt the same way. Every time I go anywhere I feel like everyone prefaces my arrival with "here comes the single mom with 3 kids she's going through a bad divorce let's put our happy faces on." I am the 3rd wheel with 3 little bundles of energy coming with me. I feel like my friends are just coddling me so I spend more time at home alone with the kids than being social.
I am sorry that you feel that way. Pretending sucks. We have to pretend so much. Every emotion is physical. Good luck on finding a warm body for cuddles and kindnesses. It is so hard to trust. Do you have kids?
Moksha
Re: tired of pretending jillieb44: I feel the same way -- totally lonely, sad, depressed, rejected, etc. I'm dying for adult human contact. I'm overworked, overstressed, with only my kids and pets for company.
Nobody freakin' gives a sh*t what I'm going through. Working 2 jobs, etc. I freakin' work 80 hours a week, 7 days a week, and nobody freakin' cuts me any slack. I'm short handed at work now too.
F*ck it all. I'm ready to call my old f-buddy again. He's emotionally unavailable but oh-so-hot in bed -- the physical contact would be wonderful...what else do I have?? Nothing. Freakin' nothing.
Nobody wants to date a loser like me.
Jillie :'(
Re: tired of pretending treeluva: You are NOT a loser.
ANd although, your Fbuddy might give you physical contact, I think you know deep down that is NOT what you are truly missing right now.
I am not trying to make you feel bad, but before you give him a call, think about how it would REALLY make you feel.
But REMEMBER! YOU ARE NOT A LOSER!
Re: tired of pretending jillieb44: It would get me what I want at the moment -- close physical contact. And while he's with me he's very attentive and loving -- not a wham, bam, thank you, ma'am, tells me things I want to hear...
I want more, but how long do I have to wait?? How many years of loneliness do I have to endure? How many losers have to break my heart?? At least I know where I stand with him...
Jillie
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