Growing Apart broken_saint: to: cnc313
babe,
After 9 years of being together and side by side with you each and every day, i now travel a path and live a life without you for the first time. It's been the longest 3 months of my life. I never believed that we would ever grow this far apart. In fact, i always believed that we would grow old together.
I remember the pillow talks we use to have about it, squishing our faces humorously so that we would see how we looked old and i'd say "kiss meh shugga!". it was cute. i was so happy with you and each time we did cute things like that, i would feel so much more closer to you. I remember watching you while you would sleep and listening to you breath. Sometimes you would wake up and smile back at me. Sometimes i would ask you in your sleep if you loved me and you would whisper "yes!" and you would reach out and hold me. i remember how you would stick your big toe under my leg in bed just so you would be touching me cuz our dogs would sleep between us.
Just wanted to let you know that i miss you. i miss the you that i've known everyday for years. It is punishing to know that each day that passes you are walking further away from me. This is my life without you. Sometimes i have to look at our pictures, just to make sure that you did exist.
i miss you so much baby and i can't help that.
i love you and that just will never change.
- me
Re: Growing Apart broken_saint: to: cnc313
babe,
it feels like the past 9 years was all a dream. i know that's a bit unbelievable to agree with. i tried to say hi, i sent you a letter telling you how i feel, i wasn't harsh on you although i have all the right to. i know for sure now that you are never going to speak to me again. i feel robbed of my time. i put in so much, gave you my support, felt things with you that i never thought i could, told you ever deep and dirty secret. i made you feel special and happy.
i can't stop caring. i can't stop loving you, you are forever a part of me. i built so much love for you in my heart that it's filled my soul and has for many years. i have this ring, i wanted to marry you. i will always have it to remind me of what could of been.
i just wanted you to know that i miss you very much.
- me
Re: Growing Apart broken_saint: as the days go on and the months roll by, i'm missing you more.
Re: Growing Apart LostTeacher: man....you are telling my story.
my ex and i grew up together. spent every day together.
when married, never spent more than 3 days apart.
now......seperated 18 months, divorced 3 months....having spoken since september, haven't seen one another since feb.
it's hard losing this close person in our life. it feels like we can't get along without them.
but i am proof to say that you can. it seems hard now, but it does get easier. you have to give it time. you have to give yourself thought-stopping techniques, things that will make you think of something else at your lowest moments.
it gets easier. but for now...it's ok to feel some of the pain.
LT
Re: Growing Apart Tarag27: Your telling my story too.. How do people go side by side for months and years, and than *poof*..they are only a memory. It's so sad. i am 10 days into a break-up. Everyday i think he will call and beg for me back...As days pass, Im starting to wonder if that call will every come. *sigh*
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