GIVE ME A F**KING BREAK!!! toofreshtothinkright: I just don't beleive this. Everyone knows here how messed up I am over my ex....she was my everything..I won't go back into that. Everyone also knows that I can't do anything without being reminded of her.
I have been taking this fitness course through the YMCA (she works there as an instructor and her new man, the massage therapist, works there too.) BEcause of that, I don;t go to the YMCA anymmore since I would die seeing him, her , or them.
ANyway, the course is taught by the Y, but not at the Y (thank god)...BUT I just jfound out tonight that the 3 hour final exam next week (ON OUR WOULD HAVE BEEN 4 year anniversary) is being invigilated by MY F**KING EX!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I GIVE UP! I can't even walk by the building without almost breaking down, let alone writing an exam under the eye of my ex.
I am going to have to walk into the lion's den right before I write an exam that is a stepping stone to a potential new career path. That's what it is. All her friends (her cliche) are there. She knows all the instructors. Her man is there. I haven't been back since I found out about her and the OM.
I can barely study for this without finding this out.
This, on top of me writing that email and wanting to send it more than anything.
I'll tell you right now, anyone that is in the same boat as me (heartbroken), DO NOT pick up the new CD by Angels and Airwaves. It resonates too much with the feelings I wish I could share with her...Just a warning.
Re: GIVE ME A F**KING BREAK!!! feelin lost: Keep your head high, take the test and show her that you are strong enough to deal with her and all her friends.... hugs to you and know that there are a lot of us out there that are with you. :)
Re: GIVE ME A F**KING BREAK!!! chiefkyle: Was thinking the same thing.
ACE THAT TEST!
Re: GIVE ME A F**KING BREAK!!! MikeB: Hey Dave...
Oh man... what a f*cked up situation!
Well, generally I'm with feelin' lost... If you manage to at least act strong and make it through that would both show her and help you on your way...
Anyway, if you should decide on taking the test I recommend getting yourself into an aggressive mood beforehand... you know, listen to some really aggressive music, do something to get the adrenaline flowing... then it's less likely that you will cave in, or at least the adrenaline will counteract the serotonine...
Is there any chance you can get a certificat that you made it through the course so that you can take the test some other time somewhere else instead? Considering that this test is necessary (?) for a possible future career ... you should see to it that you take the test... so if you really cannot do it there, maybe you can do it somewhere else (another city?)
But I think actually taking the test there might prove a big step...
(Oh and btw, considering the post where you wrote that I am the only one who doesn't tell you to move on and have no contact... that's not entirely true... I advocated no contact and I merely said that moving on is not the only option... but it seems to be what works best for most people... and only you can decide which road to take...)
Anyway... I wish you good luck with the test should you decide to take it... and I hope you'll get better soon.
Take care,
-Mike
Re: GIVE ME A F**KING BREAK!!! toofreshtothinkright: thanks for the advice mike.....
It;s going to be rough. Iwalked by there today and got all nervous...man I was just walking downtown to grab lunch! ???
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