Misc angry ramblings...forgive the grammar and punctuation please! kellsbee: I don't exactly know where to start. I have been away from ojar for awhile now but have been a member for a good amount of time. I thought I could live without it but some days im weak. Today would be one of those days. I can't exactly pinpoint what it is thats bothering me. Maybe its because time is fast approaching the anniversary of the "filing of the paper work" or maybe its because Im alone and lonely and just freakin pi$$ed off still. I try to let things go, try to move on but when I see how happy they are together it just eats me up inside. I seriously hate the fact that somewhere deep down inside I still love him. HATE IT! I hate the fact that he can sit on his butt and do nothing. When I say nothing believe that! He doesnt work and his hoe supports him. WTF??? How come he comes out smellin like a freakin rose when he's the one that couldnt keep his critter in his pants??!?! I never did any of this. I never wanted my family to fall apart. He's the one who F'ed up and now this pitaful state rewards him by not enforcing this so called "child support enforcement" judgement! Yes!! He only has to pay 188 dollars a month and NO!! He's not even paying it but he can collect child support 500 dollars a month for his hoe and food stamps 400 dollars a month and I can't even survive on the money I make when I work!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WORK!!!!!!!!!!! He doesnt even work!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Nothing!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Lazy A$$ hat! I am just so freakin mad and the more i think about it the madder I get! DONT MAKE ME MADDER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Freakin retard!! I hate him! And his hussie...can't forget her!
More later....Should be working instead of venting!
