Re: I don't want to continuethis journey Feel: Giver you are making me :'(.
I feel you pain... It's funny how they know how to keep us in LIMBO...
Is there anything you can do, be with family or friends... this will help you sleep or relax because someone who really cares is near. I know it's not the X but it's an unconditional love and comfort that will keep you saine!
I am so sorry you are hurting so much... I wish I could be there!
Re: I don't want to continuethis journey giver: I guess that's one of my problems. I really don'thave many friends. All of our friends were "his" friends. They were all peopl einvolved in "his" activities. I do have family (my daughter and I live with my aunt and uncle). But I havve taken up for him so much becasue I just want my family back together, that I think they are really tired of hearing it. They want me to see that I need to let go and I just can't. I've done nothing for 12 years butLove him and take care of him and our daughter. And that's all I want to do. AllI ever wanted to be was a wife and a mom and he still says that I was a good one (wife and mom). I don't understand how you can just leave a good wife and mom. I am so hurt and I just don't want to feel this hurt anymore. I don't think I can make this journey. I just want to lay down and cry. i don't want to get past it....I just want it to go away. I WANT MY FAMILY BACK!!!!!
Re: I don't want to continuethis journey e-blogger: giver, I feel just like you do.
Today, I woke up with such an overwhelming sense of grief. I keep wondering if he'll ever come back - I love him so much, I don't want to lose him. To make matters worse, today I found out he had cut off our electricity on April 1st - without even telling me. So yesterday, not only was I in complete physical darkness, but I was also in complete emotional darkness.
How can anyone who professed their love for me for the past 8 years be so inconsiderate as to leave me in total darkness physically and emotionally?
Giver, you have your daughter - please don't give up. Me- I have nothing - in our 8 years of marriage, not even a kid I have to remember us by. :'(
Re: I don't want to continuethis journey broken_saint: giver,
wow ... i'm so taken back by your pain. i felt exactly the same way when she left me and i totally agree that it feels unbearably horrible. i know you're in a hole right now but you have to be strong for yourself or at least for your daughter right now. let some time go by, i'm sure you will hear from him soon. just don't go chasing after him and DO NOT let him see how much he has effected you. remember he did this, this is his choice and not yours. he put you in this position and you should not try to change his mind. you will only push him FURTHER AWAY or just piss him off. it's how it works.
in time you will feel better, and you will be stronger than you ever have been. getting your family back to the way it use to be is not on his agenda and it is something that he will have to work very hard for, but that is up to him. just don't force it.
Re: I don't want to continuethis journey sheydp: You CAN and WILL keep going for your daughter. I totally and absolutely feel for your pain... Family is my most important thing too. You HAVE your family - your daughter. You ARE her family. Sure, you hurt the loss of your husband - she hurts for the loss of her father. Will you ALSO put her through the pain of losing her mother?? Will you make her endure this pain - and worse - because you couldn't??
You will not only live through it - you will endure it the best you can for her sake. Perhaps it is time to talk to someone about medication to get you through the worst parts until time can do some healing? She is too important to let down in a worse way than he has. You need to take care of herself so she has a mother - has family. She needs you right now - more than you ever needed him. Time to get strong - and you CAN. You ARE a mother - and a good one... so I know you can do it. I PROMISE you can do it. One day at a time. ((((((((((((((HUGS)))))))))))))
Shey
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