Re:please need her back seth: Oh, one more thing if you read this. Don't take Ambien or any other synthetic sleeping pills, take Melatonin, which is a more natural chemical that is what your body produces anyway when you're winding down for sleep.
Last year when she dumped me, I got a prescription for Zoloft and Ambien and had some Ambien left over for this spring shen finally did leave for good. I took the Ambien a couple hours after she left and slept for two hours before waking up in a panic. Didn't sleep much for days and days. Take melatonin, it really does work...
Re:please need her back ksguy28: Why do we fight so hard to keep what is hurting us? Granted I am strong, I mean I have worked cases in which people that I did not know lost someone they really loved in a grusum way, this I can understand to hurt, but love the one thing that can kill someone without them dying on the outside, but our insides are like a hollowed out piece of machinery, yes on the outside it is beautiful, great shape, but the inside is dead, nothing there to start the day fresh just another robot in the world filled with love all around. Do you know the one thing I really hate now a days, When her and I were together, I would always talk about having a child, she would agree show some interest then nothing more. Now I hate seeing young couples that you know are so inlove, so intune with eachother and have a child with them. I never thought I would be alone when I met Kellie, When we dated I was always there by herside when she needed me. Now she says I smother her, when we were dating she told me that she did not want our relationship to turn out like her brothers, you see, him and his wife have this understanding, if she wants to do something with her friends, so be it, he will do something with his. They never argue, they have a great loving relationship and now they are expecting thier first child. Now when she said that she did not want to be like them, that puzzled me, the reason is she never wanted me to go out bymyself with my friends, I always had to be there when she was with hers, but I am smothering her, you see what I mean the fact is I am truely puzzled. What does this mean? She just wanted to be the center of attention, she just wanted a ring on her finger for just a little while and then when the attention wore off, I was not good enough for her. So she tells me I am smothering.....Emotions are another of lifes little mysteries... Emotions can kill a person dead... They can lift a person so high and then drop you without a net. I am falling right now but in the process I am making my net yes it may have some holes in it, but I think it will do the trick, I have found a safty in my logic if I can call it that, when ever I have to talk to her, I make it short and sweet, I try to make her laugh any chance I get (no fighting avoid all words that might be considered hateful) always agree with what she says... Take this for example, I had emailed her at work well this morning around 2am Central time, asking if she would like to see me today and if so just call me when you get home. So she called around 4pm and started to tell me how tired she was. So I suggested that she just go lay down and call me if you wake up and want to see me. I go to wal mart and get the new Lord of the Rings movie and watch it with my father. Now it is 9pm and I txt message her on my phone and say hey sleepy head want to see me. she writes back that she is already in her pjs and maybe we can see eachother on thursday, well for a second I got mad but then calmed down and wrote her just kidding around that I have seen her like that before, but I can wait till thursday cause that is what she wants.. She said ok and that was that and she told me good night. So I txt her back and said what no goodnight kiss. She actually called me back and just laughed and said I really want to see you on thursday. I said good night and I will see if I can but I will not make any promises.......
Now, as I am writing this I have gotten four txt messages from here hoping that we get together.. I will not see her on thursday... Now it is her time to see what she can do to change the way she is thinking.. Dont think that I will let this go on forever, Because I do love her, I do want her back but I will not fall into another trap again only having her for a short time, the next time I loose her, I might just loose myself too.....
Thank you for listening...
B
Re:please need her back seth: God, I know exactly what you mean about seeing young couples in love or couples who are expecting. Now that I'm single, all I see are couples... Young couples, middle-aged couples and old couples. I saw an elderly Japanese couple sitting together on a park bench today. That really shouldn't make me feel jealous but it did...
I envy your situation w/ your ex wanting to see you soon. I just got a letter from District Court today about how if I try to contact my ex again I'm going to be in trouble... I don't know how it got to that point... Good luck.
Re:please need her back justmenow: I used to see couples all over and it bothered me, until I reaally started to watch them and pay attention. Now I do see couples holding hands, nuzzling, etc. but I also see my share of couples walking one in front of the other, not speaking to one another in cars, being short with each other, walking with a good distance between them. Just because they are a couple does not mean they are happy. I work with a woman who is technically married, but absolutely hates her husband with every fiber of her being and has no intention of leaving him. How sad. I feel I am better off in that situation.
Also, things can change really, really fast. One week my b/f and I were standing in the airport holding each other and crying that we would be apart for so long. He was kissing me and telling me he loved me...then two weeks later he doesn't want to talk to me anymore. "It's not you...it's me" Yeah. A couple that appears happy this week may not be together at all next week. Sad but true.
Start paying close attention to couples and you'll start seeing the reality vs. the perceived. People were so surprised when my X and I broke up because we "seemed so happy and well-matched". That must be why he screwed my best friend.
