Re: He Should Have Been Me smokin: your thoughts needed to be released. anytime that you have ANY thoughts, you post, post and post more................
then you can analize them, and see that while suicide IS a big issue, and hurts all whom were left behind......
you know we are all here for you, and call anytime, and keep a positive attitude. you need to let go of the past, look into the future, to see what it holds.........
and yes, turkey makes you tired......... ;)
Re: He Should Have Been Me Roseville: Broken~
Whenever I have ever had any sort of thoughts of ending it all (and trust me, I'm a huge baby and I don't think I could ever actually hurt myself) but I would think of my Mom, Dad, Grandma & Grandpa and how devestated that they would be. I just could not do that to them. Now, I also have my children to think of, and would NEVER leave them to be raised by someone else. I would never want for them to think of me, and somehow twist what I'd done was somehow their fault.
BB - there are too many people in your life that care. Think that at one time, you were the precious baby that your family loved and raised. I actually can think about how hurt my mom would be, thinking of me as a baby and wondering where she went wrong, and why her baby was taken from her. Suicide is selfish and hurts everybody in your life.
And on the vindictive side - why leave this wonderful world and let your X continue to live and love. Phooey on that - make your goal in life to come out on top - love more, love stronger, and live happier than he ever will! You've got it in you - just let it out!
Jen
Re: He Should Have Been Me yella: BB - I wanted to wait until I got home to post to this so I could give it real attention instead of confusing thoughts and words from me.
You know that I know what you feel here, and you know what I said about your friend in Premium. You know that I understand the reason he did this, and the thoughts he had that this will all go away once his life ends. You know that I understand that.
You know that I'm at my lowest point as well as you are. We're having the same thoughts and the same feelings, and I too, am afraid to sleep. I too am having dreams. I too suffer right along with you.
I know things have been so hard for you. You have a lot of time to think on your hands, and you feel like you can't contribute to your own life. You feel lost, confused, and abandoned. That's a crushing feeling and it can overtake your entire soul.
I often get asked, "How can one person cause so much pain?" What I'm learning is that it's not just one person, it's two. It's the person for getting the ball rolling, and it's ourselves for continuing it. But one thing we can't do is let it rule us. No matter how hard it is, we have to break free because if we don't, and we take our own lives, our souls will never be free.
Hopefully, you thinking this way is a temporary thing, but if it's not, I urge you to seek help. Please trust me, Girl. You've seen me at my lowest, and you know how scared I am. Please get help. Like my father told me, "There are just some things you simply can't do alone." He's right.
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I am frankly surprised that I caused such a stir. I toodle around here and think that people don't really pay attention to my posts. It would appear I was wrong.
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Your light shines brighter and enlightens more people than you can see, touch or feel. Although your light may be dim now from where you stand, all those that have been touched by your light hold it for you and shine it back at you so that you can see your way through. So many people turn out that light without ever giving those people the chance to give it back and they are left to carry it, forever, as a constant reminder of what was. As long as that light never goes out in your heart he will always be with you.. as you are with us.....
