Re: 3:00am, I can't sleep! larry: Hi Feel,
I agree with the others that the phone calls should be kept to exactly what the court order says. Like Spike said, you can't live in this limbo, it's not healthy. Every time you allow him contact other than what's on the court order, you're going to relapse, much like I have done in my very recent past. And at some point, you could hurt yourself a lot. Me personally, I had to put up a note on my computer that says 'Got Sleep?', so that I remind myself of how poor my health was as a result of the lack of sleep I got my relapsing.
Now I know your case is different because you have a son with this man, but don't you consider for a second taking him back. He is clearly not good for you. And you are very obviously an emotional wreck right now. Some of us are saying the same things to you over and over, you just need to believe it yourself and do something about it. It's God awful scarey, I know, but what fear is greater? The fear of starting a new life, or the fear of all the emotional turmoil and terrible life you could have by taking this man back and/or allowing him to dominate your life?
I'm still praying for you. Keep your head clear, think only of yourself and your son, and do what you KNOW is right. Control your emotions, don't let them control you.
Re: 3:00am, I can't sleep! Feel: Thank you all so much for your votes of confidence...
My X does have an emotional attachment to me... he does know how to press my buttons...
Lately I have noticed he is using my son as well I don't know what to do?
Re: 3:00am, I can't sleep! larry: Lean on us, pray for wisdom, and don't allow him to use your son or your emotions against you. Stand firm! Be proud! The second he says or does something that your head immediately says to you 'red flag', fight back. Not necessarily physically I mean, but don't let him get the upper hand. You can be strong, you can be free of it all, and you can have your life back. You just have to fight for it!
