To ... y'all jadedangel: [color=navy"> Well … just writing a random letter … to thank those of you who have helped me .. been there … and said your 2 to 4 cents worth in an attempt to help me find myself in a better place than where I am. I have met some incredible people here and omg .. I am more thankful for that than I think any of you/them realize. It’s one of the only things I’ve truly appreciated since C left and it’s not something I take lightly. I think there have been times when my attachment has been overestimated and I’ve lost a few things along the way .. then again, I never was a good one with moderation. I’m not sure why I keep finding myself in the same place over and over .. but, I think I have overused my welcome for complaining. I don’t like being the person that says … he left a year and some odd months ago and I’m still fk’d up … Who C was to me is something incredible … and even if I can’t come to terms with him leaving … I can come to terms with the fact he was something monumental in my life at one time.
I’m not around as much as I used to be and not contributing as much as I once did. I think Ojar has become something that isn’t helping me right now and I’m not helping it. The clique bullshit gets to me every time .. the new dramatics .. the new prejudice .. and the new aura it presents itself with just doesn’t open itself to me wanting to embrace it. I’m sorta a pain in the a$$ like that. Things change, people change … and evidently online boards change ;) … that’s fine .. it’s not really in need of me … I just miss what it was when I had it. Perhaps, I will see it again one day. I guess I just want to make the point that I appreciate everything it gave me .. from one month friendships to email bantering to great friends I hope to keep for an extended period of time. Thank you Michael for its creation … perhaps you realized the potential it held, perhaps not. However, if it touches every person’s life the same way it has touched mine – it was definitely a good investment.
I wish y’all the luck of a lottery winner .. the health of a centagenarian and the love of a young dreamer … No, I’m just kidding … But, I do hope you get everything you want from life … and find your pot of gold at the end of the rainbow.
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Re: To ... y'all brokenbaby: :'( :-*
Re: To ... y'all yella: JA- I was reading through some old posts that we used to have months ago, and I'm with you in the fact that I miss it.
But, there are other great groups that have formed, and Ojar as a whole has been such a great place for me over the past 2 weeks... once I got over my little wall. So many great people have come to my aid, and it's been such a help getting through my latest mess. Even some of the joking has come back. ;)
But I have to say, JA, and it's nothing new to you, but I miss having you around. I honestly do. :'(
Re: To ... y'all Irony:
Hey jade...
So many times you picked me up when I wanted to stay down and for that i can never thank you enough.
Your insight and unique way of looking at the world have been a source of strenght for me and a lot of others around here.
I wish you peace of mind sweetie...
I even got thru my 4th anniversary today (with a little help from my friends)
I loved your gratitude list by the way..
it should be longer than the piss and moan list for sure.
hang in.. hang tough, and most of all, keep believing in yourself!
Love you,
iron man
Re: To ... y'all JNA: Quote: I’m not around as much as I used to be and not contributing as much as I once did. I think Ojar has become something that isn’t helping me right now and I’m not helping it. The clique B.S. gets to me every time .. the new dramatics .. the new prejudice .. and the new aura it presents itself with just doesn’t open itself to me wanting to embrace it. I’m sorta a pain in the a$$ like that. Things change, people change … and evidently online boards change … that’s fine ..
No you are not a pain in the "AZZ"...You are the most helpful person I have found here...
Miss Guardian "JADED" Angel
Let people have there "Clique's" ok...
Just keep helping the people here that need help
Need your help...
Quote: the new prejudice
Yes people can be that way when greed of something they want is involved but...
Know that changes over time...You look back and wonder why did I do this...I hurt so many people
Quote: Things change, people change … and evidently online boards change … that’s fine ..
Yes they do...
But that does not mean you have too
Be you and forget about the people who have "changed" ok...
You give "great" advice here
Ya know...
JNA
I'm not around much anymore either but IM me sometime ok...
