Thought I was doing soo well... Mist: Go here for my theme song of the day: http://ojar.com/boards/index.php/topic,30572.0.html
Now mind you I am sure part of why I am feeling all these feelings is that today is our 5th anniversary. Hard on me. So hard.
I realized today that I still love him very much and still now if he came to me and said he wanted to work on it I think I would take him back.
Even after everything he has done and said to me since our separation and even before that.
I am moving on....I am happy....
Ugh...
Like I said I think its just because of what today (6/23) was.
Re: Thought I was doing soo well... Roseville: Mist,
August 2nd is our 10 year. I don' t know if we'll still be trying to work thru this or not by then. It will be a hard day (along with my and his 30th birthdays, mine 7/10 and his 8/19) I feel a hard couple of months coming on.
I'm sorry that you're hurting :'(
Re: Thought I was doing soo well... Feel: Mist,
stay strong hunny, you will pull through... make this day a special day for you and your girls, do something silly, dress up with them, have a pillow fight, go out on day trip... find something that you can say is your own!
Re: Thought I was doing soo well... alonewith2: My 5 year anniversary will be June 30th. I feel the trepidation coming on already as it approaches. It's like a battle in my head between the "take the day and mourn for yourself if you have to" vs the "don't let him ruin ANOTHER day of your life by giving in to the sadness." I'm still not sure which will win out or if I'm even ready for it.
I guess we just have to keep reminding ourselves how far we've come and the progress we've made. And you are doing great, Mist. ;)
Edited to add: I just checked out the song you posted and it's so funny because I just posted that song last week! I think we just discovered the 5 year anniversay in the month of June CURSE!!!! lol :P
Re: Thought I was doing soo well... watwat226: What a coincidence. My four year anniversary is also on the 23rd of June. I knew that day was coming, so I got out of the house at 3:30 am, spent the rest of the day doing things and hanging out with friends, and didn't come back until 5:30 am the next day. So it was like I missed the whole day altogether. It was great. I have only slept for 6 hours in the past 3 days, but it's great none the less.
I like that song. It's sad, but it's a good song.
I hate anniversary and other memorable dates. *sigh*
