he wont respond to my emails 1 candi: we really need to talk like adults without getting angry and pissed off. you need to look at things from my perspective and can you maybe be a little open minded.you make it like you didnt do any thing for myself or my family to be so angry with you .thats what gets me you really belive you have done nothing wrong.why cant you own up to anything do you really think others get so angry with you and lose your trust for no reason.do you really think i didnt have a valid reason for not paying rent.do you also think you didnt do something legally and morally wrong with MY BANK . you tell the people around you how awful i am but dont tell them what you have done . you are always so innocent? .i loved you so much and cared about you so much but you were to busy analyzing ever thing i did or didnt do ,say or didnt say to realize that ..the big picture . or listened to anything that i may feel or even care!.i can honestly say you crave a more than normal attention from me or any girl you may be in a relationship with .you seek more appraise or help from a girl that is normal.. can you honestly say you have done that for me or have respected me or my feelings. i was never important to you .what is more important is how much attention i gave you or if every aspect of my life would only benefit you . you say weve been friends for 7 years then you should know deep down that i am not a bitch and dont always think of myself . all ive thought about is you. when you hurt i hurt when you fail i fail when you sucseed i sucseed.what hurts the most is you never loved me..that i lost my best friend. i never thought you would cheat or sway but that night when we looked at each others emails i couldnt understand why you sent pics of YOUR****to girls when we were together or write a girl and say im goodlooking fun and have a great career we should meet with your phone number.you loved me that much to write that?.. i didnt want to believe it so i didnt say anything. you sent a pic of ***** giving you head and you wrote my wife .and no i was here and you were in newport.i didnt want to believe it so i didnt say anything but now i realize so many lies that you told me that how can i believe you..anything you may have emailed before we together is none of my business i would never write to a guy like that when i am with you... im taken ...
you said ***** was cheap and selfish now i am too. you have friends that are girls but i dont mind, but if i hang out with a friend thats a guy its wrong especially knowing hes SO UGLY c mon seriously..you know im broke but will take any money you can get from me .. you expect me to pay you back for things that you offered in our relationship.. that i have offered to pay you back for.i never asked you to pay for my plane tickets you did .you didnt benefit from any of it? in vegas i offered to use my car to save you on gas .do you really think if i HAD the money i wouldnt giveN it to you. i havnt offered to pay for things? you know that i trusted in you that ebay would work and i would have money but it didnt paypal screwed me then i got sick .. i may not of had a consistent job before but always made money and had it in my pocket .i worked all last season on different shows and supporeted myself. i gave that up to be with you just like you gave up working all the time for me.relationships go both ways . you went thruogh a breakdown and i was there .were you there for me do you realize that my hormones being screwed made me sadder then what i am .BECAUSE I WAS PREGNANT! or that other people had you made me sad .do you really believe that if i had money in newport i wouldnt of had something for you.we were supposed to come to vegas for your b-day were i had the means to make it special for you. i appreciate the room and show but you didnt benefit from that ? or maybe it was to impress me early on in our relationship? i would of wanted a card that had meaning and a small gift.. if we wernt friends for so long id say SCREW it but its such a shame to me . is it to you ?or is it just about your credit that was screwed anyways .i dont want to see you struggle but you think i do . i will move on and be happy regardless but i think we should work things out .we cant get along on the phone thats why i am writing .so maybe you can express your feelings by writing back although i dont think you have any because you dont really care or miss what we had . i sent you that narcissit thing not to be cruel but to show you that may may have it. its a personality disorder
