Re:How much time? atalose: It's hard to accept and move forward when everything you've known is in the prcess of changing. Then in the back of my mind and deep in my heart I think maybe the changes are for the best. Looking back over the years I can say I bended more towards his wishes and wants then it being a give and take relationship/marriage, I was content and yes I was happy the majority of the time but there were those days when I felt all was not right between us.
When I think of him now (where is he at, when will he be home?) my thoughts are confusing; I think how can he disregard me and my feelings, then I think- hope he decides not to come home at all. STRANGE.
Its hard still living in the same house with him (seperate rooms though) he tells though he no longer wants to be married to me that I still belong to him until hes told by a judge otherwise, I just dont understand this: He doesnt want me so hes pretty much washed his hands of me so emotionally how can he feel that he has the right to question me, demand answers and lay down the law. His attitude is making me turn from him. Let me explain...not that I want to be with anyone else right now emotionally or physically but he constantly yells at me and throws in my face how I better not be...that I'm still his. I think to myself hey dude it was your decision to end our marriage so as far as I'm concerned where I'm at, who I'm with or what I'm doing is simply none of your business as long as its not here in your house or our sons not with me!
But evertime he brings up this subject I think do exactly the opposite of what he says. UNDERSTAND? Not right I know but WTF, this is why I'm getting to the point of simply not caring.
Then I ache and cry, how has he been able to reduce me to the person I have become in the past 2 months, how has he been able to make me feel so differently towards him when just 2 months ago I loved him dearly and bended to his every wish and want and now I find myself wanting to do the opposite of his wishes and wants.
God, I think I'm going crazy! My thoughts and feeling are so screwed maybe I belong in a looney bin?
