Feeling much better Sman: Well, I am feeling much better today. I have decided to try something new, something that I don't even know if I can do but what the heck. I am not going to talk to or see my soon to be ex anytime soon or in the future and if she really wants to get back together with me or has any hope of saving our relationship I am going to let her make that first move. She already knows how I feel about her and our marriage, I guess I need to give her her space and time to make the right decision as well. I know this isn't going to be easy for me, as I think about her and think about the things that we could be doing together, but its the only way to move on with her and our relationship or just move on period.
She sent me an interesting response to an email I sent her a few days ago. We got together last Wed and talked for a very long time, and I sent her an email telling her that I have been bettering myself as an individual these past 5 months and she agreed with me. She said to me that once I feel good about myself and know what I want in life that the other things will fall into place. I am assuming that she means "we" will fall into place. I guess I have been reading to much into her response, but wanted to throw that out their and see what you all think about that. She did also tell that she has seen the positive accomplishments that I have also made these past 5 months.
Well, I just do a lot of praying and hope beyond hope that she is the woman that I am meant to be with forever. I do love her and care for tremondously! Now I have to think what I am going to do with myself on Memorial Day.
