I hate who I am. yella: Something's got to give. I'm crawling in my skin today and with each minute that goes by, I feel worse and worse.
I can feel myself slipping into depression again and I'm sick of the same old ways of trying to drag myself out of it. I'm really beginning to wonder if I'll ever break out of this.
I know I have a lot going for me... it's what people tell me, but it doesn't feel that way. I have 2 great kids that I can't even be in the same room with right now. I just want to sleep or drive my car into a tree. I'm so sick of feeling like this, and I knew it was coming I could feel it. I just can't break from this.
I wish I could sleep and just not wake up.
Re: I hate who I am. snkpack: This is not good. I have gone through spells like this, NOT AS BAD, but still a funk. Its a hard road to pull yourself out of slumps all on your own, but you have to figure out what works for you. Pray, post, whatever it takes.
Re: I hate who I am. timetobefree: Hey girlie,
Bad friend here, as I know you've been struggling, and I've been doing my own thing. I wish I had some magic words for you, but I can't imagine what you are going through, especially taking care of the boys on your own.
I know it's just talk, but it's scaring me. Please don't be too proud to tell someone you need help...the police, a domestic violence shelter, a hospital, anyone.
I know you are seeing a counselor....maybe it's time to let her know how bad it is? I know you are open with her, but when you only see her periodically, she might not be aware of how much you are hurting right now.
PM me if you need something, please.
Amy
Re: I hate who I am. Chey: Smiler.......you need to stop taking the weight of the world on your shoulders honey. It's ok to ask for help. I know you don't get along great with your Mom but could she maybe take the boys for an afternoon while you just catch your breath and think? Maybe go out with a friend and do something just for you?
Temporary solutions I know, but I agree that the counsellor needs to be aware of these feelings. They're hinging on very dark one's darling. You're right you ARE strong, but no-one has to be strong on their own.
Sending you lots of hugs and support ok.
Re: I hate who I am. superwife: I know it's hard to realize this when you are in this funk, but we've all been there to some extent. Some of us are right there with you right now... we all have different ways of dealing with it. On any other day, I may feel the same way as you (and have at times...believe me, I have). So since today is a good day for me, I'll try to talk you out of this funk. That's what we are here for...for support. Support from people who can relate. I have a lot f trouble with dealing with the outside world with stuff like this (parents, friends, etc). That's why I spend so much friggin time here :-\
I don't know what else to say, except that I feel your pain. And you need to get out if this mood or we'll have to change your name :)
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