Re: I hate who I am. JNA: [quote author=Smiley link=topic=31006.msg308902#msg308902 date=1151949917">
I wish I could sleep and just not wake up.
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Re: I hate who I am. JNA: [quote author=JNA link=topic=31006.msg309138#msg309138 date=1151979151">
[quote author=Smiley link=topic=31006.msg308902#msg308902 date=1151949917">
I wish I could sleep and just not wake up.
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Well since this is a "Support" Board...
I'll go first
You are going to sleep but "wake" up...
So when you do know that you do not "Control" the things that happen to you
You just have too live with it...
Some of us have great lives with no emotional hurt
Some have a lot of it and have people hurt us left and right...
What does not "Kill" you will only make you "Stronger"
JNA
It may not feel that way now...
But "Life" is about the Long Run...
Be there for it
Re: I hate who I am. sxymom95: Smiley I feel you whole heartedly.
I am going through the same thing. It takes every ounce of energy just to get dressed every morning. Try findin an outlet, writing poetry, classical music, exercise, a hot bubble bath by candle light, or even a good book. Do things that you know make you happy.
Sxymom
Re: I hate who I am. trapped: Smiley...something to consider. Perhaps you are in this funk because you are peeling the onion. This self realization stuff is pretty draining and when you're examining yourself like this you may feel worse before you feel better. But you will get out of this. Just keep reminding yourself. I know what its like to not get out of bed for days on end...hell, I didn't even barely leave the condo for close to 3 months. But you will want to get out of bed again just as surely as I finally left my condo prison.
And while you're in yours, lean on us here. Were all here for you. When you don't feel like dealing with your outside world friends or family then lean on one of us.
Were here to hold you up. You can count on that.
Re: I hate who I am. yella: Thank you, Guys. I appreciate all of the support.
It's been hell off and on for the past few years, and it's getting to me more and more as time goes on. I'm just so tired. Too tired.
My mother and sister were driving me crazy yesterday until I finally just told them to leave me alone. The last people I wanted to talk to was them. No thanks.
I think trapped is right... this self realization crap is draining. I'm learning so much about who I am, and sometimes I really can't stand it and I feel so defeated. I guess it's just a part of life.
Yesterday I just got to the point where I didn't want to deal with the "little things" to pull me out because that's all I've been doing. I'm sick of looking at it all now. It's not enough, and I'm mad because I don't know what will be enough. I'm frustrated, and I want to give up.
I'm seeing a doctor later this month for medication due to a chemical imbalance. It's hormonal, and once it hits like this, there's nothing I can do. I just have to suffer with it. It's not just the "blues", it's something much more serious. I felt the rollercoaster hit too many times yesterday. I was ok for about 15 to 20 minutes, then I slammed right back down again. It's funny because as soon as my calm time hit, I knew it was only a matter of time until the darkness set in. Kind of like when you get that violent stomach bug where you're throwing up every hour. You feel ok in between, but you can feel when it comes back. That kind of thing.
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