I am numb
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I am numb Melbel: The kids and I were just hanging out this morning, when there is a knock at the door.  It was J.  The kids are all daddy's home, hi daddy we missed you etc.  I know that he should be at work and that by the look on his face this is not going to be a nice visit!  I invite him to come in and he asked the kids to go upstairs that he needs to talk to me. 
He took K to the docs this morning and she is not pregnant.  He seems sad and that this is something he wanted.  I tell him I am sorry he is upset but I am not the person he can come to anymore when something good or bad happens in his life that we are divorced and I am not ready to be friends.  Then he leds into I came here to tell you something that is going to change your life....great!  He tells me how much he hates his boss and how on Thursday they got into it and he quit and walked out.  Yep and he wanted me to know he is going to "try" to still give me the Child Support and at this point hands me a check for July.  He said he just needs sometime to find out who he is and he and K are thinking about moving in together and they want me to know they have no intention of trying to replace me or take the kids away from me.  I tell him thank you for the check and letting me know what was going on.  I am just sitting there and he looks at me and has the nerve to say she needs me she isn't strong like you!  WTF is that?  I can't feel anything, and to make it worse I give him a way out.  I say, I will take care of the kids, I always have and he laughs and says yes I can always count on you being responsible.  He calls the kids down gives them a kiss on the head and tells them he has to go and walks out the door as if he has not a care in the world!

Why is this happenning to me?  I really feel like I am at my limit....what else can happen to me?  I feel like I am being tested and I feel so alone! 

Melissa 
Re: I am numb snkpack: I don't even know him and that sh*t pisses me off.


Re: I am numb PennyLane: What a piece of work.  It's amazing they actually get away with this mental disresptful behavior.
Just when I feel at my wit's end from my own goings on. I sign on here and always find someone who has just as much or more turmoil.

Wow, Melbel, I'll be thinking of you. 
You are so not alone.

Hugs
Re: I am numb just_me_detroit: Okay so not only is he a fucking prick. He is a irresponsible fucking prick!

Why the hell does he think he can use you for support! Its sounds like he is afraid to lose you. Hello Asshole, your already gone!

Then he goes and screws you and his kids because he doesn't like his boss. Tuff shit asshole. If you were a real man you would have found another job before quitting. What makes you think its okay to quit working because your not happy? What about the kids. They need your support!

I hate shits like him. What trash, he is perfect match for his white trash gf.

Mel you are not alone. And I am sorry you have to go through this BS.
Re: I am numb Melbel: Thank you guys!  Yes, he is an a**hole just me but he is an a**hole in lust.  The kids will be fine they have me and it will be a cold day in hell before anything happens to them!!  This is why you have 2 months salary in the bank people if you lose your job or the dead beat pays you half of the CS he should.  That's ok.....I am great and the kids are great! 

Tonight we went to the EMS (local ball club and a big group of us went and brought all the kids) and watched them win and then they put on an awesome firework show!!!  I mean it was awesome.  They fell asleep in the car on the way home and I had to carry them both upstairs :'(.  I am going to miss them tomorrow, it will be the first of many holidays by myself.  I can do it!  I think I might pop in at a friends house but they are all married and in love and s**t and I really am tired of being the only single person in the room!  Then again it might be better then sitting in the dark drinking too much, we will see how my day plays out 8).

Have a good night kids!  I am going to take a sleeping pill and "try" to sleep.

Melissa

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