Court on Thursday brokenbaby: Ok. My first hearing is on Thursday morning. It's half an hour with a mediator and asshat. I am nervous as hell. I bought some new clothes so I'd at least be comfortable with myself. I know he wont notice or anything like that and it wasn't the point. I wanted to give myself as little to worry about as possible. I have all the paperwork I need and than some. I have all sorts of ammo and a good knowledge of the laws here because I'm a law student and have access to all of the legal databases that go on forever. What I don't have is an attorney. I am afraid I am just going to break down and cry. I don't want anything other than for him to sign off from the deed to the house, which I fronted the money for. Technically he owes me upwards of 100k but I don't want it. I just want out.
I am praying I don't fall apart in front of him. He thinks I want him back. He is on a huge ego trip like he is the man. Me crying would just boost that. He has had the words "I'm not coming back" on the tip of his tongue since he left, like he could use it as a weapon and just drive the knife deeper. I have not seen him to talk to him since Feb. nor have I talked to him in e-mail. He has been gone 7 months now. He acts like he is so much better than me. Shops at all the expensive stores, buys whatever he wants...etc. But of course he moved in with his parents and left me with everything except a car payment that is now paid off. I on the other hand have 7 animals, all of the expenses of owning a home and keeping it going, my car, blah blah blah. Why does it feel like he is further ahead? Life isn't about hanging out with your friends all the time and just spending money right? I want a family, stability, I want a home and an education. Why do I feel less than him. Is he really ahead of me? UGH.
Frankly, I am scared out of my freaking mind.
Re: Court on Thursday ATLGIRL777: Good luck girl!!!!! ;)
Re: Court on Thursday Mist: You are going to do sooo awesome!
Just smile. It makes them wonder.
Re: Court on Thursday Melbel: Not only smile but look really good!! I think I have shared the secret my gfs and I have but here ya go. The worse I/we feel inside the better I/we look on the outside. A new outfit, another layer of lip stick, maybe my favorite black heels. It give me a little more confidence and it makes them wonder why you look so damn good. I love making him wonder, I actually find joy in it!!
Melissa
Re: Court on Thursday yella: How'd you do, BB?
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