i just don't know anymore lonely_n_upset: hey all i am new here so i am gonna try this. my husband left me almost 6 months ago, and i filed less than a week after he left, not that i wanted to or anything. well during this time he went and found a girlfriend which almost killed me literally and she left him for about 3 other guys and now after all this time he is living in my back yard in a camper cuz he has no where to go and i wanted him there for my son and i guess for me my divorce will be final in 1 month and 3 days and i still don't want it all i do is cry and want him back in my life even though he makes me feel like crap about myself i just feel like i am no good that i will never be good enough for anyone i never go out even when i have the chance and i have never even thought of being with another man i just don't know what to do anymore i try to talk to him and he just keeps telling me i messed up everything but i am not sure how i am just looking for some advice on what i should do here it is the 4th of july and i can't even spend it with my son cuz he has him and he didn't want anyone to see me with him in town we live in a small town and word would get around in like 2 secs if we were seen together all i know is there is not one other person that i want to be with i am not sure if i will ever be able to find anyone again i mean i am not very pretty or skinny or anything like that so i am not sure what to do thank you all for listening
Re: i just don't know anymore Melbel: Welcome,
I first want to say, please don't put yourself down! You now need to say 2 nice things about yourself. Right now your are feeling so many things and the last thing you need to do is put yourself down, it sounds like he is doing that for you and for that I am sorry. Be kind to yourself, if not for you for your son...he needs you!
If the gf already left him I think it speaks volumes of the type of person he is. You need to focus on you and you need to be strong for your son, we all have days of I can't do it. You have to ask yourself if you are the person who is willing to give up? Are you willing to not be strong for your son and do you want him to have the power of making "your world" stop. Stay with here and we will help you. I have only been here a short time and have made some great friends and am feeling so much better about me. It really does help to talk to people who are going through the same things! Don't give up!!!
Melissa
Re: i just don't know anymore lonely_n_upset: i wish i could go and pick my son up but he is the only one with a vehicle before now the divorce seemed like a whole dream but now that the finalization is so close it is hitting me hard it is just so weird he is definatly not the man i ever thought i would marry but for some reason i fell in love with him and now that i don't want him to go he is gone
Re: i just don't know anymore Dana: If you could save yourself the heartache you have felt and all the pain but still have your son would you do it again? NO you wouldn't. This is your chance to make it right for you. He's still the same. He's just lonely and bitter. Why would you want to jump into this all over again. You're getting divorced for a reason and you need to stick with it. If you both wanted to be married again and all that, you could wait years and he would still be wanting to be with you. The fact that you're feeling this way is because it's the end of something. Try to think of this as a beginning to your new and better life.
Re: i just don't know anymore lonely_n_upset: it is just so hard to see me without this person he has been my rock for years and i know that is bad but he is the only one who understood until now and i know that is why he don't want to understand it is crazy just to see someone with such a big heart lose it all for nothing
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