almost a year, and sad again wendieann: :'( After almost a year, I thought I was doing great..then lately more and more memories are seeping back into my head and depressing me.
It seems like every where I turn now, memories of him are there...haunting me...of what I use to have.
I took the kids camping and when they all went to bed, I sat alone by the campfire and missed soo many things...etc.etc.
I do try to replace those loving thoughts, with all the things he did that upset me :( ...but, it doesn't work.
:'( I just end up missing him...
Even watching my little girl start walking... he wasn't there to "walk" back and forth to... :'( etc. NOW, when he first sees her walking she will be walking towards the OW.... :'( It is suppose to be US...mommy and daddy... All the "first"s that she will have won't be shared by us...but with daddy and his affair...
Sigh... Oh, when does this saddness end... :'(
The reason we had 2 children was so I could know what it felt like to RAISE a child as a couple/family/mommy/daddy.... To share those memories with... now I am alone again, raising babies, while my STBXH is with the OW and there empty childless home.... :'(
Re: almost a year, and sad again snkpack: It will get better.
Re: almost a year, and sad again sosad05: Wendie...I know what you mean. I dont know how people think you can be "over" it in a year's time? It takes years to build up. Ive been off/on sad lately too. I made so many mistakes. So, did he. I guess we just have to keep plugging away and living our life.
(((HUGS)))))
Re: almost a year, and sad again alonewith2: It's been a year since our second separation started (as if the first one wasn't hard enough...)
I thought I was doing well, some off and on things....but when my daughter said her dad's new gf's name yesterday for the first time, I wanted to cry!
