Re: Wedding anniversary would have been tomorrow mav: Thanks guys. Worse part is I have to see her tonight at the mediators, she BETTER not even mention the anniversary...
About mourning, lately I find myself mourning the future more so than the past... Sux to think that we had plans to start trying for a baby this summer... That's probably one of the things that scared her off actually.
I just get so frustrated about that now, 34 years old, want kids and it seems like an impossibility at this point. Still have to get over this, then somehow meet someone... At this point it just seems like that will never happen.
This is just a bad day, I know I'll get over it.
Thanks again guys.
Re: Wedding anniversary would have been tomorrow e-blogger: Mine was just this past month - June 6. I went to sleep the entire day to make sure I wouldn't cry. 8)
Re: Wedding anniversary would have been tomorrow rjack0612: Mine was June 12 and the funny thig is this year I didn't even realize it until it past. Last year I was a basket case. This year, sine I no longer have a wife I didn't even tune in. It hurts even more to be alone and have nothing.
Re: Wedding anniversary would have been tomorrow mav: So today's the day. Not sure how I'm feeling about it yet. I've been thinking of her alot that's for sure.
Last night at the mediator was pretty bad for me. We signed the official agreement of seperation. It was very hard and I could barely speak. I never imagined it would be that hard.
I've been prepared for this for a long time now, yet still had to force myself from breaking down all the way home after. When I got home I let it all out. I was so angry, I hate her so much for this, I never did anything to deserve what has happened, never did anything wrong to her. I know we had issues that needed to be resolved but running away wasnt' the answer, and I would have happily worked on these issues.
When we left the mediator's office, I didn't even stop to talk with her in the parking lot like we usually do. I just walked to my car and said "ok, see yah!", and drove off.
Imagine that, celebrated my 4th wedding anniverary with a seperation agreement. I never would have thought. I really wouldn't have imagined this in a million years.
Re: Wedding anniversary would have been tomorrow sosad05: June is definitely NOT the month to get married. Mine was in June also. Last year, I bawled my eyes out. This year, the day passed me by and I didnt realize it until a few days later. You will NEVER forget the day but as time goes on it does get easier as the date passes.
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