Finding Happiness WITHIN Myself Roseville: Good Evening Everybody~
You know, it's only been 4 days since my birthday post, how blue I was, and how things just weren't going well at home. Well, I've been forced to look INSIDE myself to find out why I've been so unhappy. Well, my birthday, an emotional one, was my 30th and was also the 2nd anniversary of my grandpa passing away from stomach cancer. Reading back over that post tonight really just hit me how upsetting that day was for me. I think, looking back tonight, that there probably wouldn't have been anything that my husband could have done on that day that wouldn't have upset me. For the past few days things have been so nice. Things have been calm. Things have been "normal". Yesterday my mom and I took the kids on a little trip out of town to the Children's Museum and then today to the Zoo. We spent the night at a hotel and came home this afternoon. I had several telephone conversations with my husband while we were gone, at least 3 per day, and he was always the one that called me. Today was his first day back at work since his motorcycle accident over 3 weeks ago. Needless to say, he's exhausted. He has a very physical job, and his ribs are healing fractures & bruised. He is now working himself into the 4th week on a new anti-depressant, which if you'll remember from my very firstt posts, I partially blamed for his temporary insanity. This new med is, in my opinion, making a huge difference in his moods. I can look at my husband for the first time in 2 months and actually laugh and smile with him. We can play with the kids and we can get along without wanting to strangle (overdramatization) each other.
Its been an amazing summer for me. I have done things with my kids that I never would have done before. I've taken my kids out of the state for vacations / trips twice, when I'd previously been so anxious about traveling with them that I would hardly leave town without my husband with me. Wow, how I've changed. And that is my point - I'VE CHANGED. I've changed my opinions about myself and my kids, and about my husband. I no longer look for approval from him for everything I do. I know that's been a huge esteem builder for myself, and I imagine that it's been a weight taken from his shoulders also. I really believe that we are going to make it - I honestly do. I think that these trials and tribulations have been a test of our marriage, and I believe that we will make it thru, stronger than ever.
Thank you all for listening to me, I appreciate you all.
J
Re: Finding Happiness WITHIN Myself icwtsmnl: I'm so happy for you. I'm glad you have a new sense of self-worth. that really is priceless. hold on to that new perspective, NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS in your life, in the near future or distant.
Re: Finding Happiness WITHIN Myself ibrisa7: wow it's so nice to read a positive story on this site.
good luck and congratulations!
Re: Finding Happiness WITHIN Myself thehitekrednek: Welcome to YOUR life. Just remember that YOU are the only person responsible for YOUR happiness, no one else.
Congradulations, I'm happy, for both of you.
Keep talking to each other, communication is the key.
Re: Finding Happiness WITHIN Myself drowned: Way to go J.....I am glad finding yourself as we've talked about is really key to one's success. I hope one day you can look back on this and say to yourself no matter where I am at now I survived back then. The past is ugly sometimes, I can attest to that in more ways than one. Sounds like things being "normal" on your end has made you finding yourself a bit easier I am assuming of course. Life has no real direction and the direction you take is up to you, if life takes you in a different direction, one you had not hoped for than you must roll with the punches and move on. That's what has happened to me, I never asked for this and the situation I am in, I want my hurt and thoughts of her to leave my mind.
Good for you I wish you the best always
G
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