Moving on Emily: I just want to post up a story between me and my ex. I broke up with my ex 5 months ago because of another woman that involved in our relationship. We both were first love and lasted 10+ years together. I think the reason why we broke up is because he feel bored of being with me and stay committed. 2 years ago, he became so called "good friend" with her and they always SMS/call/e-mail without me knowing but somehow I found out and told him to stop the connection with her because I don't feel comfortable which he lied and continue doing so. I was stupid enough to believe they are just "friends" and didn't do anything until when he moved to LA for career, things start to happen to another level.
1 year ago, when he moved to LA for job, we had a long distance relationship and kept us together for 2 months when he confessed that he like that girl. That girl is in vegas and they develop into a deeper relationship when I'm not around with him. So there he have 2 long distance relationship at the same time back then. I couldn't stand it and broke up with him and unfortunately we went back together after 6 months of separation because I still love him so much and thinking giving us another chance would revive our relationship. My naive thought just bring devastation of my emotion. He cheated on me again with the same girl after being back together. I'm not sure if I can use the word cheated because he probably didn't ended with her in the first place. When I told him I'm going up to LA to see him, he would say "don't push him" and don't go, and most weekend, he would not call me at all. I did not get the reassurance from him after getting back and in fact, there's no trust exist. I get extra sensitive of those little things and start thinking about the past of what he did with that girl in vegas. We were suppose to get marry 2 months before our recent break up. That marriage didn't happen because he don't want to marry me because of that vegas girl. After all those things that had happened.., I just can't deal with it anymore. I ended the relationship for the last time. I was struggling so hard to get over this jerk. My tears couldn't stop for just a minute everytime I think about him. I talked alot with some of my close friends and being online all the time to get advice, and now I'm dating another guy.
I have to tell everyone here, don't give up on hopes. This current guy I'm dating, he's alot better than my ex and now I'm happy to be with him. We share alot of our past relationship and I'm comfortable of telling him about how I feel at this point. He totally understand as he had been to that stage once upon of time. 5 months ago, I did not feel the same way as now. How I get better? Just continue to get advice and counsel. Its so hard to NOT think about the person you loved so much and for so long, and it hurts like a spears get through your heart. As of today, I still feel crappy cuz couldn't stop myself of thinking about that jerk but definitely less. Life is funny and strange, you never know what's going to be happen. I always thought my husband is my ex but future do change just depend how you choose it. sigh.
Re: Moving on Roseville: Emily~
Congratulations on moving on. I've always told my sister-in-law (who seems to always end up in abusive, dead end relationships) that she won't realize how bad the relationship was, until she is with someone that treats her right. When you look back from the point you're at now, I'm sure you probably feel the same way.
Congrats & Lots of Luck in your new relationship,
J
