just a mini vent LostTeacher: every time that i go to an event where my friends will be, i try to steel myself to it. get ready, and know it will be a bit tough. these are people i've grown up with, and that i have seen get married, have kids, and who have gone down the path that i have.
yesterday i went to a wedding of some friends. it was a bit tough, because they started dating a long time ago, around the same time that my ex and i did. they dated, went to school, moved in together, and have just gotten married. it was beautiful, and they really are meant to be together.
but it was hard. i didn't think it would be, and for most of the day and evening it wasn't.
but by the end of the night, i didn't feel so hot. it was hard...so many of my friends are married or with someone, and i spent some time sitting there by myself, looking at those all in love around me, and questioning what i am doing.
i mean, i haven't dated, i haven't been in a new relationship, i've barely gone on a date since seperating. sometimes it makes me wonder if there is something wrong with me. maybe there was a reason my ex decided not to be with me anymore...no one else seems interested.
but i know that this thinking isn't going to get me anywhere. i had a very small cry, and that was it. felt a bit blue today, but just trying to think it thru.
so...that's it. might add a bit more a little later...just wanted to get it off my chest. no one here to vent to, no friends around...just me and the computer.
LT
Re: just a mini vent Freckles: I am Praying that You feel Better and find someone Nice
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Re: just a mini vent Melbel: LT~
I know what you mean. I am feeling sad tonight....I don't like having free time. It makes me think. I don't want to think.
You will find someone! You are a strong, caring wonderful person someday when you least expect it...he will be there. He will make you feel special, important and more love then you can hold. You deserve to be loved the way you need and it will happen.
Take this time for you. Travel, get a new hobbie (I am going to try golf. Let's see what so exciting about whackin the little ball with the stick, I am more of cantact sport kinda girl...) or maybe volunteer in your community. You have some many things going for you! Be strong.
Now if you are done with your small cry and being sad I will send you some of my famous Sangria. It's the redneck version *insert evil smile*
Melissa
Re: just a mini vent LostTeacher: that sounds fantastic to me!
i was just with my ex for so long, and now on my own for so long, i can't imagine loving anyone else, or even being with anyone else. it's such a strange feeling...to think that there is someone else out there that is meant to find me.
a new hobbie is not a bad idea. there is not a ton physical i can do because of my knee right now, but i am going to go back to the gym on monday. i have slacked, and it's time to get on track.
now that i think about it, i am probably down because this week would have been our anniversary, on the 20th. i hadn't even thought about that. but maybe deep down i knew it.
thanks mel....feeling better!
LT
Re: just a mini vent Melbel: Sorry!!! Sending Sangria!!
I am the world's "special" person. I locked myself out of my own house! Yep, I did. Went to 7-11 to get a 6 pack of beer and a diet Pepsi grabbed my spare car keys without the house key on it. Got home and started laughing. Opened the garage door to find the laundry room door locked..and called my dad. Half way up the ladder(with the ladder too short, I am only 5 4 and it's dark) to go through my bedroom window he pulls up. Yells for me to get down before I kill myself (I am also a GIANT accident waiting to happen) he takes out his ID and pops the laundry room door open in under 10 seconds! SON OF A B*TCH. That was the coolest thing I have ever seen.
I am now sending a double screw it!
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