How do I deal? mysticboer: My boyfriend and I are in the first day after we mutually agreed to part. He was my whole life and I am emptier that I thought I could ever feel. I never knew I had a stalker tendency. I cant stop myself from calling him. I cannot stop thinking about him and I hurt so much that I have not slept nor eaten for 24 hours.
The pain seems to be physical. I never realized that the pain one feels after a break up is so intense that it could be compared to a broken leg or arm.
I found his profile on an adult cruiser webpage and tracked the emails via cookies and he had a meeting planned for tonight. He claimed he had to work. He still claims that he is working, and never intended to follow through with meeting. He did provide his cell phone number in the emails.
I feel so stupid! All the signs were there. He guarded his phone with his life and even picked it up off the charger to go to the bathroom.
Somehow this is turned around and I am the one apologizing and begging for one more chance. I truly love this man, and cant understand why he wants to stop trying to work on our relationship. I was really angry when i ofund all this out and thought about the gun under his bed and almost ran over his toes when he tried to stop me from leaving. And then I thought about wrapping my car around a telephone pole. I just want to make him hurt as much as he makes me hurt.
He did all this and I am the one apologizing and begging him for another chance. Beaten wife syndrome much? I understand that gay relationships are hard and complicated but why do i hurt this much and why cant he be with me.
Re: How do I deal? jackie13: I is going to hurt, but you need to step away. It will take time, but you need to take care of yourself.
Re: How do I deal? chaotic: First, the pain you are feeling is natural. Everything just happened and you need time to cope. Second you have to realize that it is over. He does not deserve you. Stop thinking that he was your world. It may seem like that, but life goes on.
Most importantly: He is not worth hurting yourself or anyone. He is not worth thoughts of wrapping your car around a post. Stop apologizing for stuff you did not do.
Re: How do I deal? hr: Don't apologize for someone else's bad behavior and lack of morals. Talk to us. We will listen and we have compassion for what you are going through. He does not. Hang in there, take each day one at a time. Let it out whenever you need to. Reach out to anyone you feel comfortable with. This is new to you and you need time to absorb it. Hugs to you.
Re: How do I deal? spooky: He was running around on you? That's not a relationship you want to save. The pain in normal, the urges to find out what's going on, that's no so uncommon. But you need to resist prying and just greive the loss. It'll be fine, so will you, and you're better off without a cheater.
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