On a down slope :-( Crystal_Blue_024: I had such a fantastic weekend, even after the little episode with Drea on Friday... Then, on Sunday night Drea texted me and was asking about her stuff again, and said, "Then I'll leave you alone because that's what you want." Which was totally a hook line to try to get me to talk to her, she's used it before. So I told her to leave me alone. Then she texted me back and said, "Look, I'm sorry for what I did okay." I had to laugh, isn't that the most pathetic attempt at an apology? So I wrote her back and told her she was nothing but a liar and a cheater, the low of low, and she was dead to me, and that was the guilt she would get to live with. She of course texted me back and tried to blame it all on me, said I lied to her too, blah blah blah. But I just didn't respond again...
Yesterday, I found out through our mutual friend that Drea and the OW broke up and Drea moved back into her dad's house... Which of course is exactly what I figured would happen, her and the OW would split, and then Drea would try to talk to me again... The thing is, I have all these conflicting emotions going on right now, and it's driving me nuts...
On one hand, I'm glad that she's hurting (I know that sounds bad), I want her to feel pain and remorse for what she did, and realize that she lost the best thing that ever happened to her (I dunno if this is all what she's really feeling though)... On the other hand, I'm so hurt that she thinks she can just try to come back in my life cause her and the OW split. Like I'm some worthless piece of $hit that she can keep on the back burner until she needs me... And then of course it brings back all the feelings of hurt and abandonment from when she first left me...
I dunno what's going on in my head... I 1/2 expected her to try to talk to me yesterday, and she didn't, which is good, I know, but it hurt for some reason... I think on some level I was hoping she would try to talk to me, but why? I don't know. I dunno what the hell is going on in my head now, or what's wrong with me... But it hurts today, real bad...
:'( :(
Re: On a down slope :-( icwtsmnl: everything you;re feeling is totally normal..
but MOST IMPORTANTLY, STAY STRONG!! do not give in to her selfish manipulative ways. she never would have come back if she and OW didn't break up. screw her, she can live with her faults and lonliness now. you were great to not even respond to her last text. STAY STRONG. you will feel so much better in the end. she doesn't deserve you.
Re: On a down slope :-( chaotic: Once again that mean b!tch Karma has come and bit someone in the a$$. Some times it takes years even a lifetime for it to happen, other times it happens quick.
Stay strong. She was hoping you would be her soft landing and you showed her that you would not be. That is why she said the hurtful things. She suddenly realized her mistakes and that was the only way she could make herself feel better. Dont let her words hurt you. Stay strong and dont let her back in. She does not deserve it.
Re: On a down slope :-( confused101: ICW hit the nail on the head.
There is still a big part of you that wants her back given the right conditions, and there is nothing wrong with that. But really, if they hadn't have broken up would she be there with you?
Re: On a down slope :-( Crystal_Blue_024: I know she wouldn't have contacted me if she was still with the OW... And it makes me so mad at myself that I'm letting her have this control over my emotions when all she's doing is trying to manipulate me, because it didn't work out with the OW... I'm mad at myeslf for wanting her to contact me, because I know it's good that she's not... I'm mad at her for not contacting me... I'm mad that she think I'm so worthless that she can just come back to me at anytime no matter what horrific things she's done to me... I'm mad at myelf for thinking about this so damn much... I just wanna be back to a happier place :'( :'( :'(
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