Feeling so bad on my birthday sneaker: My ex asked me to have lunch with her yesterday to talk about her share of the house. I kept trying to avoid looking at her or staring her in the eyes. She's too beautiful, it hurts. The only thing that stuck with me after an hour with her is when she said loving me again is impossible.
Yesterday she called and we talked for an hour about how things ended. I felt I had to tell her that I can't handle the fact that she's seeing someone else, that I feel betrayed and that she has no remorse about leaving when things were bad instead of working on the relationship.
Anyway, I always kept some kind of hope deep down inside. What can I say, I never quit on anything. I know two couples who split up and got back together after a few months. I thought that could happen to us. But she took away any kind of hope I had.
Now I have to face the cold reality (some would say it's about time). It's really over and I feel so empty. Yesterday I had real bad thoughts. It scared me a little to think that I could get so down. The last two months were hard, but I haven't been on Ojar as much as I did in the last two days.
Oh and it's my birthday today... yeeee! :(
She called this morning and didn't even mention it.
Re: Feeling so bad on my birthday Ciera: I'm sorry hun. Happy birthday. I know it's from a stranger but I really do wish you happy birthday. The next year will be better. HUGS!
Re: Feeling so bad on my birthday brokenbaby: I am so sorry. Hang in there. I know the betrayal you feel. It blows me away that they can just leave when things get difficult, that the work is too much for them.
Do something wonderful for yourself for your birthday. Focus on you. Take some time and just think about you.
Happy Birthday!
Re: Feeling so bad on my birthday sosad05: I'm sorry hon! HAPPY BDAY! I went thru the bday blues last week too. My xh called also and didnt mention it but I know he knew.
Try to find a friend to go out with. I know it probably wont make you feel much better but it would be better than sitting alone on your bday thinking about her. Last year on my bday, I just cried and cried. This year I was better. I'm hoping next year will be even less painful.
(((((HUGS))))))
Re: Feeling so bad on my birthday CDNgurl: Oh sneaker... I'm so sorry. You deserved a happy birthday. That is just cruel. Why is it that leavers become so cold? You share a child together for goodness sake.
Hugs!!
and Happy Birthday. I'm sorry it couldn't be happier. May the next year bring you peace and good things.
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