Re: Feeling so bad on my birthday abandoned1: I know exactly how you feel, as I feel the same toward my STBXW (she actually left 3 days before my birthday, and 1 day after the 1 year anniversary of our wedding). She too is with someone else - living with him in fact, and took away ALL hope right from the start. I still wonder if it would be the same had she not had this other guy from her workplace. If it were just her confusion and doubts about her relationship she had to work on. Having the other man though, relieves her of the need to think about us, and just move on with him. It was so, so hard at the beginning - but 3 months out, I'm much, much better. As you will be. Keep busy. Rediscover yourself and all the things you like to do, or are passionate about. Submerge yourself, in yourself. Oh, and try as hard as you can to have a happy birthday - you deserve it!
Re: Feeling so bad on my birthday madmax: Go out with some good friends.
It may be tough to do...but take the initiative and call them if they haven't already called you.
I WOULD NOT be home alone on my birthday when I could be with friends. It doesn't even have to be a good time...but it'll be comforting to have them around.
BTW...Happy Birthday from the Mad One
Re: Feeling so bad on my birthday broken_saint: happy birthday sneaker, treat yourself to something special today
Re: Feeling so bad on my birthday sneaker: You guys are great. I really appreciate your kind words (fighting back tears, because I'm at work). For some reason, today it means more than you know.
As for my feelings, the hardest thing for me is acceptance. I even went back to having some kind of hope today. Thinking what I said to her yesterday may have touched her in some way... But I know I'm just having a hard time letting go.
I've never really been alone in my life. Yes, I lived alone, but I always had someone in my life. Went from living with my father, then with my mom and then with a girlfirend and my ex. I've always had some kind of emotional link that would (unconsciously) reassure me. That and a fear of abandonment will make a breakup a little harder to accept. Yep, I've been learning about myself...
And tonight I can't go out, I have my daughter to take care of. But it seems like my mom and sister will come by.
Bug, Snap: the hugs felt good :)
Re: Feeling so bad on my birthday Ciera: Anytime. :) The snap in my name came from when I got a small obsession with crocodiles. When the world is really getting to me I can just imagine a big ol' croc snapping at everyone. "SNAP, leave me alone." :)
SNAP! You should try it. ;)
and have the best birthday you possibly can.
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