I did it AGAIN.... God help me :*( Crystal_Blue_024: I had an awesome time last night... But today I got on-line and I checked Drea's myspace again... I can't help it... I have to check it to see what she's doing... I dunno why... I just feel like I have to know... :'( :'( :'(
And there are a bunch of comments between her and her ex g-f (that she was with when we were broken up before) about coming over and doing sexual things together, the comments being very "descriptive." :'( :'( :'(
I'm losing it.... I don't know what to do, but this is killing me.... I just can't handle this... I can't handle the mental images :'( :'( :'( I can't do this anymore.... I just can't.... I can't get away from her.... I dunno why she's doing this to me... I dunno why I'm doing this to myself... But I can't stop... Why is she purposely trying to hurt me... Why is she trying to torture me... How can the person that used to love me so much purposely be trying to inflict pain on me.... How can this just be such a ha-ha joke to her, when I'm fucking dying inside.... I don't think I can do this anymore... I don't think I have any more strength left... :'( :'( :'(
Re: I did it AGAIN.... God help me :*( confused101: No support from me, you did it to yourself.
Re: I did it AGAIN.... God help me :*( brokenbaby: You have to stop looking. I don't mean this to sound harsh but she isn't doing this to you, you are doing it to yourself by continuing to go there. The frequent visits to her site mean you will never be able to let go. Stop torturing youself.
You can do this, you can get past this, you have to do it by taking responsibility for yourself and taking care of yourself.
Re: I did it AGAIN.... God help me :*( Fjord Girl: It was way easier to say "stop looking at her webpage" than actually doing it. I'm sorry you are hurting, but when you have control of a situation, then choose to exert it. Looking at that web page only brings you more pain, so why do it?
Think about the reasons why you do it, then think if your pain is worth it. Don't let anyone control you this way. Do you think she does it on purpose? Because one thing is for sure... Once they leave, they don't live their lives because of us. Their actions have nothing to do with us anymore.
Re: I did it AGAIN.... God help me :*( confused101: Actually everyone lives for me, they just don't know it.
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