to my daughter giver: To my precious baby girl,
Oh my baby....where do I begin? First off let me say that you and you alone are what keeps me alive. There have been times in the past 17 weeks that I truly believe the only air I breathed came through you. I look at you each day and think...how could anyone turn and walk away. You know there's nothing I wouldn't do for you...now or ever.
B, you know how sorry I am that we are having to go through this. And I know it's hard on you just as it is on me. Please know that momma has done everything in her power to make this right, but there are somethings in life that you just can't fix....mainly becasue others wont let you. It kills me to see you as sad as you are...please tell me how I can make it better.
Today is the day your roller coaster ride takes a new twist. This may be the one that turns you upside down....we'll just have to wait and see. But know please know that when 6:00 pm Sunday comes, I'll be looking out the window waiting for that Jeep to pull in and I'll be here to hold you and love you just the way I always am. Oh baby, I wish I didn't have to make you go.
B, I know you're scared. And yet you're trying to be so strong. Like I told you last night....I don't think you're daddy would run with you....so please don't cry over that anymore. But if he did rest assured I'd go to the pits of HELL to get you back. No rock uunturned until I found you. But, it's not for you to worry baby girl. You just trust in God and everything will be fine.
You're not wanting to hurt me "like daddy did" is the most precious thing you've ever done for me. Please know baby that momma's gonna be fine. As long as I have you, my life will be complete. I just wish you could find that sparkle that used to be in your eye. I pray that one day I'll again be able to see that sparkle instead of the hurt and pain that I see today.
Always remember "OUR" song.
I am always here beside you.....always here to guide you, afterall.
And if ever you should stumble, I'll be here to catch you when you fall
And when you're needing someone to lean on, I'll be here, to help you stand tall
I will ALWAYS love you.....after all!!!!!!
I LOVE YOU BABY GIRL!!!!!
Momma
