I thought I was over this!! overwhelmed: I haven't been around here for a while, but once again here I am! The stbxh came today to pick up the kids (hell must have froze over last night) and he advised me that he is taking the kids to meet his new girlfriend today.
Okay, I new this had to happen at some point, but I guess I didn't expect it less than six months after he suddenly walks out on us. I really don't know why this has thrown me so badly because I knew he has a new [s"> slut[/s"> ...oops, I mean woman and I certainly don't want the jerk back, but I suddenly feel like I've been kicked in the guts - again!
He's overweight, has back acne and eats his belly button lint for god's sake! (See former posts if you don't understand this) and he manages to find somebody while I'm the one doing all the dirty work with cleaning up our lives and trying to raise our children.
I've been really busy with life, but damn I wish some good looking man out there would at least try to hit on me. ;) I'm confident enough with myself to know that I'm not ugly and I'm friendly with everybody so what the fu?? My ego needs a real boost right about now! :-\
I don't know why this is bugging me so much, but after everything I've gone through since March I expected to be past this. I feel like being a Mom is all I've got right now and I'm about to be replaced.
Sorry if my rant is all over the place right now, but my emotions are, so why not my words??
Re: I thought I was over this!! alonewith2: You don't have to be sorry for your rant. Get it all out!
I can understand where you are coming from. I look at my stbx and I see a fat old man who is selfish, immature, and can't support himself to save his life. But for some reason, he's always been able to attract the women. And here I sit, with a great job, financially secure, somewhat attractive, intelligent, funny, and have a lot more going for me, but I'm alone....
It's NOT fair! That's for sure. But I just have to keep reminding myself that atleast I'm stress free (as far as money problems, etc) than he is. And I get to watch my kids grow up (more so than the little every other weekend glimpses that he gets). I would never trade it for what he has...
Someday, someone out there will notice us! I'm sure of it! Yes, we'd like it to be sooner than later, but it will happen! ;)
Re: I thought I was over this!! IlliniGirl: Overwhelmed,
You said that you feel like you are going to be replaced as a mom.....honey....NO ONE could ever replace you! You are a one of a kind WONDERFUL mom....and I'm sure your kids know that.
Just because the a$$hat is choosing to bring someone else into their lives doesn't mean #1 that it will last, and #2 that you will be replaced. There is no one like mommy, and who knows....your kids may not even like the new [s"> slut[/s"> ...oops I mean woman. ;)
Keep your chin up sweetie.....this too shall pass!
AB
Re: I thought I was over this!! momuv3: I know the feeling. My stbxh is an addict, can't support himself, depressed recluse. How does he attract women? I think its because some women think they are rescuing these guys and will be loved in return. Just my best guess.
I think I am fairly attractive, outgoing, my kids are nearly grown, and I am able to support myself. I don't see many (or any) knocking on my door right now. Just to be hit on would be nice. Not looking to date yet, but just to have someone interested would be great.
Re: I thought I was over this!! overwhelmed: Thanks for replying gals! It's nice to know I'm not alone. :)
I think I've calmed down a bit now. I've even managed to have some laughs at some of the posts on here. I haven't read them for a while so it's nice to catch up.
AngelBaby...you're post made me cry. Thanks so much for your kind words, and for believing in my ability as a Mom.
It seems I've lost everything (my husband, grandfather, house, van, independence, financial stability) since my husband walked out on us. I think I'd die if I lost my kids too. They've been the only "stable" thing in my life lately, but when I think about it, I've probably been the only "stable" thing in their lives too. I can't wait for them to come home tonight so I can give them kisses and hugs and "tickle their little pants off!"
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