Re: i thought i was over him, but he still makes me cry poppy: OMG! trapped! that is it- it is control! (and of course you didn't hijack my thread! and your dog story/sitter is like mine when mine was off frolicking with the whore! unbelievable!) i want to maintain the small amount of control i have gained in this situation.
the way you felt is the way i feel. how can he even care after being so cruel? and if he really cares about that, why doesn't he care about the other stuff?
it has taken me a long time to be able to control my emotions with him. there was a time that i was certifiable and dared him to call the police (really). the fact that i didn't immediately respond with condescending expletives shocks the hell out of me, still. i don't want to be rude, but i don't want to lose my footing either. my desire to not lose my footing will prevail.
i hope that you have recovered well from your hospital stay, trapped.
lugs and luv,
little miss manners
Re: i thought i was over him, but he still makes me cry trapped: Oh Poppy, noone here would judge you for acting like a lunatic when things first went down considering the circumstances. I think I would be in prison right about now if it were me.
SO there we have it....embrace your rudeness. He doesnt need to know jack. Dont lose your footing.
Ahh yes, condescending expletives...sometimes the only thing that comes to mind because Im just so flabbergasted by my whole life now.
HUGS girl. I know it sucks so bad but we just have to have faith that it wont forever......thats what everyone says at least.
