Re: I'm starting to look like her... startingover: Hun, you got to figure out a way to let go of the hate. I know it's not easy, but it's the only way you will truely be happy.
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You could always have what my family calls the beaching curse; a big butt and no boobs. :P Thank god I didn't inherit that.
Use hemroid cream for the crows feet smiley. It really works.
Re: I'm starting to look like her... yella: Goose.. your poor daughter! I'm kidding!! ;)
And I don't talk funny! You guys talk funny! :P
But on a serious note, this is why I hate her. This isn't something I want out on the main boards, but this is a smaller group, so I'll put it here.
My dad had 3 sisters, L, C, and A. L is married to D (my uncle). D may have molested me as a child (this is something I'm working on in therapy). My aunt L knew of this, and instead of doing something to stop it (my family hates rocking the boat), they let it continue for a few years, and she got jealous of the attention my uncle was giving me. None of this I remember, I only remember feelings right now.
Anyway, because of that jealousy, and the fact that I could have said something, L and C, along with my grandmother intimidated me by calling me names, and trying to keep me quiet, basically by telling me to shut up and stop whining. It was their cover up to keep the truth from coming out. So, instead of remembering what really happened, I remember the abuse they gave me instead.
This is all stuff that I'm trying to work out in therapy, which is starting to make sense. From my jumping from guy to guy, to the way I lash out when I'm hurt, to my psycho behavior. ::)
I know something happened with my uncle, and it happened when I was little, but I don't remember what, or exactly when. I only remember how I feel.
This is why I carry so much hate towards her. And this is something I can't let go of just yet.
Call this an attention getter if you need to, but this is my life and something that I'm dealing with. I don't need replies, I just need to get this out, and this is the only place I feel safe enough to do it. No one in my family knows about this place, so it's hear that I talk about it in order to sort it all out.
I'm looking to sort it all out, remember what I need to remember, and work on closing it so I can lead a semi normal life.
Thanks for the tip, tat. I'll have to get some. I know it works for puffiness, but I didn't know it worked for crow's feet too.
