fear broken_saint: you know what erks me? the fact that i've done so many good deeds to constantly be dealt a bad hand. but i continue to stand firm for all of my lessons even tho inside i'm so afraid of every new thing. i'm starting to believe that life is just a learning curve and that i should just surrender myself to the path it takes me on. i've always been the kind of person to begin new paths and leave my trails for those who want to walk them. it's who i am and it's becoming harder and harder to continue being that person.
... is it me or am i the only one that feels that around that corner is another bad card ready to be handed to you....
maybe it is just me. im in fear of what my new life will bring. i lost alot this year, it's tuff at times when i have those moments. i take my days with me into the next. i'm strong and stronger when i awake.
Re: fear Ramsey: I have an almost constant sensaton of fear, worry and anxiety nowadays. Most of the time I don't even know about what, but I guess it all revolves around my loss and facing the future without someone that has been with me for so long. So many unknowns in the future. What's going to happen to me? Am I going to be okay? Will I ever be loved again? Impossible questions to answer.
Re: fear asd.me: I HAVE THIS KNOT IN MY STOMACH CONSTANTLY. SO SCARED OF WHAT THE DAY WILL BRING. I CONSTANTLY FEEL THAT I AM DAMNED IF I DO AND DAMNED IF I DON'T. FEAR THIS IS THE END, FEAR OF RAISING MY KIDS ALONE, FEAR OF BILLS ALONE, FEAR OF THE UP KEEP ON THE HOUSE ALONE, FEAR OF BEING ALONE, FEAR OF NEVER BEING MARRIED AGAIN, FEAR OF NOT BEING LOVED AND FEAR OF NO MORE SEX/AFFECTION WITH SOMEONE YOU LOVE. ALL I KNOW IS I WANT IT TO END.
Re: fear Wherezmygun: Fear is a large part of this whole process. Not knowing what the morning will bring. Not knowing "Will i ever find love again" and if i do "Will i let myself be sucked it to it again, just to get hirt again". I fear that this (Divorce) is going to change the man i have become. Make me a bitter person, unable to let myslef open up to another. I fear that I will not be a good father to my sons and that they might like the OM that comes into my STBXW life sometime down the road batter then there dad. I fear that i will not be able to provide for them and myself at the same time. everyday thse thought race thru my head and i just dont want to be afraid anymore. I know that in time these too will pass and my life will go on, but right now its just a never ending bad Dream that has become a reality.
Re: fear yodafool88: i soo have the feeling that there is more pain and just BAD STUFF around every corner and so far, i have been correct... i would explain them all but i will just say it started when i was born and most recently was my boyfriend leaving me. my doc says i just need to stop always being in fear of what if? but as soon as i let my gaurd down- boom i get hit even harder. i mean, i was born into a familty full of stress and anxiety and problems and they were no doubt passed on to me. but im learning to stop being afraid but still not just let my gaurd down. im just trying to make everything seem good or turn it in to something good but the fear is still there and most likely always will be im just trying to control it
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