am i losing it? yodafool88: in reading alot of yalls stories, i realize mine is minor compared to the hell some of you have been put through... not that we all havent been put through hell, mine was just a less firey one. but im stilll hurting and i just dont know what im doing i feel like im walking through clouds not really getting any where nor knowing where im goinng. i know there is no way to make this feeling leave any faster then it will on its own, but im having so much trouble... im forgetting EVERYTHING. i told my mom the same story three times and didnt remember and then got upset becasue i was so out of it! i cant sleep and could not eat until just yesterday when i binged then thought i was going to be sick. im trying so hard but no matter how hard i try im still losing it...
Re: am i losing it? missmylife: I'm in the same place. Trying to keep myself so distracted that I don't think about what is going on. It's like looking at your life from somewhere else. Like this isn't really happening. If only I had a time machine to get me through this, but I know that dealing with it head on is the best for my future, instead of burying it all and never getting on with my life. Good Luck and you are not alone!
Re: am i losing it? yodafool88: thanks miss, good luck to you too its just nice to know that we all have this place to come together and find whatever comfort there is to find... i remembered what it was i kept telling my mom, it was my story about this site and all the great people that have given advice and well wishes. i dont know what to add but yeah, i am glad i found this place and i just hope i dont tell het again ??? :o :)
Re: am i losing it? broken_saint: pain is pain hun, no matter who, how young or old, how experienced you are... it still hurts and sometimes it just really takes all the energy out of you. it's ok to cry, it's ok to hurt the way you do. just know that you're not alone and that in time this dark place that you're in now will lift and the sun will shine again.
((hugs))
Re: am i losing it? yodafool88: [quote author=broken_saint link=topic=34028.msg353345#msg353345 date=1157084961">
pain is pain hun, no matter who, how young or old, how experienced you are... it still hurts and sometimes it just really takes all the energy out of you. it's ok to cry, it's ok to hurt the way you do. just know that you're not alone and that in time this dark place that you're in now will lift and the sun will shine again.
((hugs))
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thanks, i know pain is pain, its like love... its blind. it sees no race or religion or anything. i just have always had a habit of making myself feel guilty for feeling bad when i know there are others that have it worse. but i must learn to not do that to just address my pain because its still PAIN. thanks for the hugs :)
