Re: New here- don't know what to do faraday: Thanks everyone for your support- it is 3 days in and I has to spend all day with him yesterday running errands and it is so hard- I can't stop crying- I want to touch him and tell him I'm sorry and that I'll do anything- but he doesn't care- he says that he doesn't want to fight anymore and neither do I but at least I feel that after going through hell we should see if we can make it in a normal situation- I know that I have put him through so much and I didn't mean to I swear I didn't I wish I could take it all back- I never planned any of what happened and if there was anyone else that I could have turned to I would have- I was so sick for so long I honestly don't remember much of it- my daughter is so upset and this is all my fault- we are going to see a divorce counselor- I asked him to just think about the possibility that things could be different now that we've stopped using, that I have been in therapy and that we have our feet under us again, he said he would but for me not to get my hopes up. And now his mother is totally against me- she feels I have destroyed him, and all I have tried to do is be honest. I have no one to talk to no one- Ican't talk to my mom because all I am to her is a fuck up who isn't worth anything and I can't let my daughter see me fall apart and all I want is someone to care about how much I hurt and there isn't anyone- he took our daughter to the movies so I am alone in this room and I have been crying for days and I can't eat and I feel so stupid.
