Life! Walking like a zombie hr: The days are going so fast and I feel like I am walking through my days feeling like a zombie. I really don't remember the last time I had an actual genuine smile on my face. I miss it. I don't know exactly what is causing it. I have so much, but I feel so little. I wouldn't say that I am sad, but numb maybe. I have been this way for days and I can't seem to get past it.
In the beginning it took a lot of courage for me to leave the house. I even went outside my comfort zone and went out places alone and I enjoyed myself like I never had. Last weekend I stayed home I was sad, depressed, and miserable. It had been a long time since I felt that low. I didn't go to bed until 6am. I think my little brother is getting sick of me keeping him on the phone all the time, but it seems like he is the only one that makes me feel better. All he ever says is I don't know what to tell you sis, I'm sorry. It just makes me feel better. He isn't offering his 2cents. I have made a couple dear friends over the last couple months and they mean everything to me, but I don't want to hang out because I am just so miserable. I don't want people to see me this way. Parenting has become very hard for me lately because all my kids want to do is fight with each other and yell. It isn't their fault I want to hold myself up at home. I am staying physically active and doing a few things outside of my house, but the whole time I am on the verge of tears. I can't shake them. I haven't cried in two months. I am not ready to start this again. I hardly have any emotions, but when I do they lean towards the sad depressed side of the equation. I can't help but wonder what a mess I have made out of my life. This is just a tough day. It has been building to this point for two weeks. I know I have a choice to stay in this place or get out. Guess that solves my problem if it were only that simple. Thanks for listening.
Re: Life! Walking like a zombie JNA: [quote author=changeisgood link=topic=34064.msg353880#msg353880 date=1157133074">
The days are going so fast and I feel like I am walking through my days feeling like a zombie. I really don't remember the last time I had an actual genuine smile on my face. I miss it. I don't know exactly what is causing it. I have so much, but I feel so little. I wouldn't say that I am sad, but numb maybe. I have been this way for days and I can't seem to get past it.
In the beginning it took a lot of courage for me to leave the house. I even went outside my comfort zone and went out places alone and I enjoyed myself like I never had. Last weekend I stayed home I was sad, depressed, and miserable. It had been a long time since I felt that low. I didn't go to bed until 6am. I think my little brother is getting sick of me keeping him on the phone all the time, but it seems like he is the only one that makes me feel better. All he ever says is I don't know what to tell you sis, I'm sorry. It just makes me feel better. He isn't offering his 2cents. I have made a couple dear friends over the last couple months and they mean everything to me, but I don't want to hang out because I am just so miserable. I don't want people to see me this way. Parenting has become very hard for me lately because all my kids want to do is fight with each other and yell. It isn't their fault I want to hold myself up at home. I am staying physically active and doing a few things outside of my house, but the whole time I am on the verge of tears. I can't shake them. I haven't cried in two months. I am not ready to start this again. I hardly have any emotions, but when I do they lean towards the sad depressed side of the equation. I can't help but wonder what a mess I have made out of my life. This is just a tough day. It has been building to this point for two weeks. I know I have a choice to stay in this place or get out. Guess that solves my problem if it were only that simple. Thanks for listening.
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JNA
Re: Life! Walking like a zombie crushedman: For me, that zombie feeling was the last thing that happened before things started to get a little better. I went 84 hours with almost 0 sleep, and the world took on a trippy dreamlike feel. It won't be like this forever. You don't believe it now, but it WILL get better.
cm
Re: Life! Walking like a zombie twine: I also went through the ZOMBIE stage, after a couple or few days with no sleep or food and a whole lot of pent up feelings of hurt and anger a person gets the zombie effect. But like CM says it will and it does get better. Be strong and you will make it through this rough patch
