Re: drowing in depression sheriffben: Same here. I am feeling okay, but it is hard adjusting to a new life where you don't have plans of skipping zaway to that b&b. I can tell you that smoking pot does not help, it makes it worse! Last night I thought it would be a good idea and all it did was magnify and intensify my sorrow. If it weren't for this holiday weekend, Id be okay, I have had a pretty good week. I think ultimately, we all need to have something to look forward too for us. Book yourself a trip or something- anything you can do for you that you can look forward too. I just set up a 6 week sabbatical to New Zealand and I am looking forward too it. People are telling me Im nuts, but it is something I always wanted to do, but my wife would not travel, so now is my chance!
Re: drowing in depression sosad05: Can you make room for me too? Maybe I could just hold onto the side and paddle my feet?
My bf left for the wkd to go on a guys trip. I have my children so I'm not entirely alone. I have the opportunity to go out with a girlfriend tonight. But, I have the same issue with the "bar". If I go to the bar, I am going to want to drink...alot. Then, I'll be even more depressed. So, that doesnt sound very appealing either.
Dont know if you read my "letters unsent" post but it sounds like xh is having the time of his life this wkd. Now, I know why OW was so concerned with him having visitation this wkd. Dont want to interfere with her plans!
My best friend right now is a 3-year-old. Maybe I'll take him to a movie. The only one who seems to want to spend time with me.
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Re: drowing in depression ChristyM: [quote"> Weekends kinda suck for now yea... remember looking forward to them? Im sure it wont stay like this forever... [/quote">
It won't. I don't get on here much anymore since I technically "graduated" but this comment hit home. I remember clearly the days of just wanting the weekend to get over so I could go back to work and have something to take my mind off my crappy situation and to also just be around people. Trust me, those days are long gone and I no longer look forward to going back to work after a weekend anymore :) You will get there too. For now, just taking it hour by hour is what is needed. I tried to think of anything I could to just get out of the house ... a walk, the library, the grocery store, working out, etc. None of these will mend your broken heart but they will help the time pass a little quicker. Time doesn't heal wounds completely but it does help lessen the pain. And there isn't any book anywhere (or maybe there is but it's full of shit) that says you have to be around people. Sometimes just spending the day eating Ben & Jerry's, reading People Magazine while watching Terms of Endearment is the best thing.
Christy
Re: drowing in depression cstar17: I know exactly how you feel. Drowning is the perfect word for it. Weekends are bad and holidays are the worst. I hold my breath until I can get back to work. My girlfriend left me over a year ago. I was really upset, but for the first few months I thought I would eventually get over it. Then came Christmas and New Years (2005). It was the worst holiday season of my life. Since then I have gone from bad to worse. I miss her so much. I have worked so much overtime and so many weekends, to avoid having to be home alone, that I have completely burned myself out. I have a lot of work to do, so I can easily find work for all the extra hours, but I am so tired all the time. I am beat! I feel beat up from working all the time. But I still I hate the weekends and holidays so much. I just want to lay in bed with her and talk like we used to. I am gasping for air and she is the only one that can save me. What do I do? I lay in bed and pretend she is there. I know that is not healthy and will not lead to getting over her, but that is the only thing that make me feel okay when I am alone.
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